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Tuesday, June 9, 2009 -{'6/09/2009 07:31:00 PM

Just spoke to Daddy.
Broke down till my eyes and face was REALLY red.

I was just asking God why am I an attenion seeker?
Why am I a person that gets pissed so easily?
And some more questions.

I felt that I've cause tons of headache's to the youths and leaders.
I felt that I've gave them tons of stress and MORE stress.
And damn.
I just feel so terrible when Jo told me that I get so easily pissed.
Really terrible.
I was like man..that is so true.
People are looking down at[or izit on?:/] me.
I've got to change dude/dudettes.
I need YOU to help me.
Give me some advices.

I don't want the youth and leaders pretend to love me which they don't.
I need to feel their love for me.
I don't know why!
This has been stuck in my head.
I hate this feeling seriously.
I wrote a note in FB.
I tagged Iks, Bella, Crystal, Denise and the youth leaders and Kristal in that note,
and I felt weird tagging them.
Why did I tagged them?
Maybe I need them to know what am I facing in life.

Gosh,
I seriously want to move forward.
Sick of the way that I'm living right now.

Guys,
I'm only 12.
Turning 13 this year, November.
I don't know a lot of things yet.
Whatever I did that hurt you guys or whatsoever,
I'm really sorry.
I'm not perfect.
I'm sure you know that.
I'm learning.
Slowlyyyyy learning.
I still have a LONGGGGG way to go.
You don't expect me to know everything about life.
I am who I am.
I'm easily pissed thats because I'm like that.
I know I have to change that habit.
I've annoyed you guys so much.
I'm really sorry guys!
You guys just have to face with it for now.
AND.
I'm really working on it.

Please!
Do keep me in your prayers.
I uh.
Can't do this on my own.
Hope you guys understand what am I trying to say here.
I seriously hate people telling me off things.
But, what to do?
They hate my attitude.
I have to change.

So yeah.

And you know what?
I never knew that there's a lot of people out there cares about me.
You guys are amazing.
Sharon[No, not Sharon Tang or Sharon Chia] sent me a msg in FB.
And,
man.
Thanks for sharing Sharon.
Here's what she said.
There are some parts I don't really get it.
But still reading it over and over again to understand it.
So yeah.
Baca it people.
And if you understand what she wrote,
PLEASE.
Email me, text me, call me, msn me, FB me, twitt me or whatever lah!
Haha.
Thanks.

"maxine... sometimes people pretend to be God to other people, because they themselves too have unresolvable, almost disgusting things they don't like about themselves. we who become the object of their attacks have to forgive them...you know your own weaknesses, and that's heart breaking enough already. nobody needs to feel it twice just because somebody else can't hold their tongue.the fact that God hasn't zapped anyone of us into ashes because we said fuck and got extrememely angry tells us more about God than any pastors can tell us about him.God does not live in the words people say, Maxine. God lives in your heart. if anything, he already knows.maxine, i don't want to preach to you. i hope you know that i don't hate you being a person who can get pissed easily. i don't hate the tongue that swears.. at all. But to the one who's scolding maxine from inside her head, i hope you don't hate those too.. she is just herself, and with all my heart i believe she's good."

So yeah.
Thats about it.
Thanks guys for taking your time reading this post.
Love you guys.
Take care and God bless you.

xoxo.

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