Hey people.
I just got back from my youth camp with the youths and the leaders.
WOW.
I totally enjoyed my time!
Seriously.
Felt God’s presence.
God spoke to me last night.
Whoa.
God is totally awesome.

So, right now,
I’ll just share with you about what happened during the camp.
(:

The night before camp,
I can’t sleep.
I tried but I failed.[but I did slept like few hrs ltr. :p]
I was paranoid.
Why paranoid?
Good question.
I was paranoid because I kept on thinking who are my room mates.
I don’t know why.
I had a feeling that it was Jo and Christine.
And guess what?
I was right.
:D

To be honest, I wasn’t very happy with my roomies.
Only 1 of them.
Name will be left unmentioned. (:
The reason why I wasn’t very happy is because I knew that she was annoying [To be honest, I’m annoying too. I guess].
I’ve heard a lot from the WF camp leaders about her attitude during the WF camp.
When she told me that I am her room mate, I was speechless.
I felt like shouting and screaming.
But of course, I did not.
I felt like pulling off my hair [which I did not].
But after hours spending time with her, I felt actually comfortable.
Except the 1st night. She woke me up from my half an hour sleep.
But you know what?
God taught me not to be so choosy.
I’ve learnt my lesson.
After all, it wasn’t that bad.

Session 1, Ps. Sam talked about “Does God love me?”
I’m touched by that message.
Jeremiah 1: 4-5 says :
“Then the word of the Lord came to me saying:
“Before I formed you in the
womb I knew you;
Before you were born I
Sanctified you;
I ordained you a prophet to
The nations.””
And this is our problem:
“ Not that we don’t love God, but we don’t know how much God loves us.”
To me, this is very true.
Let me state two important points.
. If you don’t live by PRIORITY you will live by PRESSURE.
. If you don’t live by God’s DESTINY, you will live by the world’s DISTRACTIONS.
And if you’re asking yourself this question,
Whether does God loves you,
HE LOVES YOU.
(:
After the message, I respond to the altar call.
Ps. John, Ps. Sam and Ps. Sam’s son prayed for me.
I was crying and crying.
God touched my heart.

You know what?
I was really shocked that Ps. Sam’s son, Jeremy, actually prayed for me.
He’s 11.
He’s like Ps. Sam.
I’m just speechless.
Very.

After session, had discussion with my cell.
Only 4 people from my cell attended the camp.
Me, Bel, Yien and Christine.
We were discussing on what is 1 area we want to move forward in our life as a Christian that will affect others.
For me,
The 1 thing that I want to give up to move forward and let go or change is I want to give up on swearing/cursing. How many words do I swear each day? I swear about 20+ words per day. What am I going to do about it? I will GIVE UP swearing. I’ve been working on this since yesterday. And in fact, I haven’t been swearing at all since yesterday. I asked God to help me on this and He actually did. (: Glory to God.

After the discussions,
Went back to my room.
Guess what?
I DID NOT SLEEP AT ALL.
Tried and tried and tried but failed.
I was watching Jo and Christine sleeping.
That was plain boring.
Of course.
I was waiting for the sun to come out.
I rest at least.
I woke Jo up.
ACCIDENTLY.
;p

Finally it was 8 something in the morning, and they finally woke up.
Thank God.
Haha.

Oh yeah.
The hotel food was okay.
I’ll give it 50 50.
Oh and btw,
I just weight myself.
And I loss 3 kg.
Wth.
I think I know why.
I didn’t eat much during camp.
That’s why.
(:
HAHA.

2nd session, Ps. Sam spoke about “He bought you….Not your sin.”
Many of us thinks that God bought our sins.
And that is wrong.
He bought us.
I’ve learnt that I’m not an accident.
Titus 2:14 says “who gave Himself for us, that He might redeem us from every self His own special people, zealous for good works.”
Also, Revalation 5:9 says “ And they sang a new song, saying “You are worthy to take the scroll,
And to open its seals,
For You were slain,
God by Your blood
Out of every tribe and tongue
And people and nation.””
And also, 2 Corinthians 5:15 says “ and He died for all, that those who live should live no longer for themselves, but for Him who died for them and rose again.”
Ps. Sam also shared with us about Revo Recess.
Ps. Sam shared with us some testimonies about Revo Recess in West Malaysia.
I was really amazed.
Ps. Sam challenged us to do Revo Recess in our schools.
I took that challenge.
Together with Jessica.
We pray that God will move Tshung Tsin. (:
Its time to lead our friends to know Him.
Its never too late.

After session,
As usual, had discussion with cell.
Only 10mins.
Then went back to room with Jo to change our clothes for games.

Man,
The games were awesome.
The 2nd game was something like Captain Ball.
BUT, We did not use a ball.
We used a CHICKEN.
Yes, a chicken.
It was fun.
And guess what?
My team won.
All glory to God.
:p

After games, went back room.
Me and Jo decided to go for a walk.
Went to the swimming pool place,
And of course,
I got pushed into the pool.
-.-
Since I was wet, I chilled in the pool with the youths.
Hah.
We pushed Jo into the pool.
Thanks to me, Kim and Adren. (:
My eyes were red after swimming.
Reallyyyyy red.
I couldn’t open my eyes at all.
Suffered that like after dinner.

Session 3, Ps. Sam preached about why the deer pants for waters.
[I guess]
He pointed out 3 points.
Sorry, I totally forgotten the 3 points.
I was sleepy.
Din't really paid attention when he pointed out the points.
I only paid REALLY attention when he shared some testimonies.
The testimonies really touched my heart.
One of it just explains the same as me.

I of course responded to the altar call.
I was really crying.
Thinking about what I did that made God disappointed.
I talked to Daddy and He spoke to me a few things.
He saved me cause He loves me.
He forgave me for doing that BIG sin.
And He also said that even people rejects me,
its ok.
God always accepts me and take me they way I am.
He'll never reject me.
Thats what I sense the Lord said to me.

After session,
my cell went to my room to discuss about it.
Bel asked me write about my breakthrough.
The questions are:
1. why did I respond to the altar call
2. how did I feel after the altar call
3. What did God said to me
4. What am I going to do about it

and before I write down the answers,
Bel also asked me to write what Ps. Sam said to me when he prayed for me.

So here it is.

Ps. Sam said that God dosen't want me to stop working on my dreams. I have to continue working on my dreams. God wants me to continue working on that BIG dream. And when Ps. Sam said that to me, I din't really understand why God said that. I was confused because what was that dream?

My breakthrough answers to that 4 questions.
"I went out and respond to that altar call is because I just want to stop committing suicide. I've started working on it since last last week. As in, stop cutting my wrist & think about dying. I felt calmed and happy because I believe that God loves me that He saved me from dying & I believe that God forgave me. And God don't never rejects me. He always accepts me the way I am. I'm going to stop thinking about dying because committing suicide dosen't come from God. And I'll continue to live a life that God wants me to live. A happy life."

So yeah.
After that, all of my cell members went back to their rooms.
And I slept.
I was sleeping peacefully [finally]but all of the sudden, I woke up.
I realised that Jo was missing.
Lol.
So got up from the bed and the door was not closed. -.-
The reason why I woke up beacasue the youths were running around the corridor.
And I WAS PISSED.
I got out from my room.
Banjo asked me what happened to me and I told him why.
I went looking for Jo and I heard people laughing so damn loud.
Guess what?
A big group of people were in a circle talking and laughing.
I was pissed.
Why?
Noisy.
I walked around and chilled.
I was freezing when I was out from my room.
My room was freezing cold.
I was like shivering.
And I sat near the staircase area.
Just to cool down and chill.
Jo saw me.
So of course she brought me back to the room.
And I terus sleep.
:p

I only slept about 4hrs.
Sien.

Session 4, Ps. Sam talked about Servanthood.
Genisis 24: 10 and Genisis 24: 22.
The message was quite short so yeah.

Ps. John asked a few of us to share about the camp.
I wanted but I was scared.

But I'll just type it here then. (:

Here it goes.

"So, I signed up for camp. I din't feel like signing up but I did. I was thinking about what if I have no one to talk to? etc. So, I attended the camp. Wow. Never expected the camp to be so awesome! God really touched my heart. He spoke to me a lot of things. I've had a breakthrough. I really felt God's presence. I really want to thank my room leader [Jo] for taking care of me through out the whole camp. Appreciate it lots. Also my cell leader and my cell. For walking together with me. I've decided to move FORWARD for God. There's a lot of reasons why.
I also want to thank Ps. Sam and his family. For blessing me a lot. (: I had a great time bonding with my friends. I just want to give all the glory to God. (: God is awesome. Oh, and also to all youth leaders, thanks for all your prayers. Thats about it. (: God bless. "

xoxo.