IamMaxineyouidiot.

Moved.

2009-06-12T14:42:00.005+08:00

Hey guys. Decided to make a new blog. Still using blogspot. Since this blog skin im using cannot comment on my posts and cannot suscribe. so yeah.

my new link : http://scoldersaintmything.blogspot.com/
relink me guys. thanks.

xoxo.

Why?

2009-06-12T12:07:00.003+08:00

I actually posted this yesterday but I deleted it. And I have to post it again and re-type it all over again for some people who wants to read this stupid/embarrassing post. Lol.

So, this question has been in my head, "Can Christians actaully go clubbing?" Yes Jo. You told me before. I'm still thinking/wondering. It seems so wrong for Christians going clubbing. I mean like really. Imagine. One of your non-Christian friend caught you clubbing and they will be asking all sorts of nasty questions [well, not nasty questions lah]. For example, "I thought he worship leads in his church wan? How come can go clubbing wan?" etc. And they start looking down on us, Christians. Damn. That is VERY bad. From what I think lah.

Going clubbing once in a while for a birthday party is fine or watch an "awesome" band performing in a club is fine. But, just a "few" cups and dancing...nah, not a good idea. Seeing some of my church members went [not going to mention any names. AND PLEASE do not get offended] clubbing, just scared the hell out of me. I feel so weird. Freaked out. Disgusted. I don't know why. That you got to ask God why I feel that way lah. (: heh heh heh. Do you think I will ever go clubbing? hmmm. Konon. :p

Yesterday my bro ask me if he go clubbing for ONCE what will I do? I answered "I'll hate you forever and probably won't talk to you." :D I just hate seeing Christians going clubbing. Sorry lah. But then if you guys wanna continue go clubbing, go ahead. I don't mind [I think]. I mean its not against the law or God din't say cannot mah kan. Mmhmm. I understand. (: andddd guess what. I saw 2 of my church members in the "KK band width" magazine[Im not sure how you spell that mag though]. They were in a club. And when Sheila showed me that, I was like wth. You got to be joking me man. Then Sheila said "HAHAHA. GO SHOW TO YOUR PASTOR LAH." I was like "uh, no thanks. They will hate me for that you know." Gawd. Can't believe it man. Damn. Dang. What the heck is wrong? Eeeeesh. God bless you guys man.

And I pray that I won't get any comments/response on this. *crosses fingers*

xoxo.

I got a feeling

2009-06-11T14:39:00.002+08:00

Black Eyed Peas latest single called "I got a feeling" is awesome. Those who love clubbing. This song is dedicated to you. *lmao*

I gotta feeling that tonight’s gonna be a good night
that tonight’s gonna be a good night
that tonight’s gonna be a good good night (x4)

Tonight’s the night night
Let’s live it up
I got my money
Let’s spend it up

Go out and smash it
like Oh My God
Jump off that sofa
Let’s get get OFF

I know that we’ll have a ball
if we get down
and go out
and just loose it all

I feel stressed out
I wanna let it go
Lets go way out spaced out
and loosing all control

Fill up my cup
Mozoltov
Look at her dancing
just take it off

Lets paint the town
We’ll shut it down
Let’s burn the roof
and then we’ll do it again

Lets Do it (x3)and live it up

i gotta feeling that tonight’s gonna be a good night
that tonight’s gonna be a good night
that tonight’s gonna be a good good night (x2)

Tonight’s the night
let’s live it up
I got my money
Lets spend it up

Go out and smash it
Like Oh My God
Jump off that sofa
Lets get get OFF

Fill up my cup (Drank)
Mozolotov (Lahyme)
Look at her dancing (Move it Move it)
Just take it off

Lets paint the town
We’ll shut it down
Lets burn the roof
and then we’ll do it again

lets do it (x3)
let’s live it up

Here we come
here we gowe gotta rock

Easy come
easy go
now we on top

Feel the shot
body rock
Rock it don’t stop

Round and round
up and down
around the clock

-end-

Moving backwards or Forward? gah.

2009-06-11T01:12:00.004+08:00

Went to watch 17 again with the youth just now at 1Borneo. Damn, it was good and awesome. (: should watch. I'll rate it 7 over 10. Not bad not bad. (: actually, I was underage but oh well. Heh heh heh.

After movie, went for supper. Asked Jo to come. Manatau, went clubbing with Peter. I was like speechless. And Jo did joined us for supper. Suprised eh. Hmm. You know what guys? I wish that I could just press the rewind button. I seriously hate the way I acted during supper. I was super emo JUST because they din't talk to me. I was like man. What the hell is wrong with me? I was just asking God why etc. I was walking around Lintas. I felt like breaking down.
I was scared that I will turned to be the old Maxine back. I was REALLY scared. I told myself. "Maxine, dudette, you just gotta move forward man. So what if they don't talk to you? Its not like you're gonna die. God loves you. Remember that. PLEASE don't go backwards." I kept telling myself that.

*sighs* after supper, went home. Bro drove. I was just shaking my head in the car[no, I'm not a mental kid] and I was disappointed. My bro kept on asking what is wrong me and I just said nothing. I felt like telling him but decided no. I wanted to cry but I told myself, "stay strong." As I'm writing this, I am finally crying. Yay? Not so sure. I don't know man. I'm just totally wondering whether am I gonna be the old Maxine back after hols. Its like I'm slowly getting back to my old life. I JUST HATE IT.

Dad,
Please. I pray that You'll give me the strength to pull through. I don't want to be emo etc. God, help me. I'm really stuck.

I was listening to Planetshakers "Rain Down." And I broke down and cried. Gahhhhhh. Help anyone?

"Rain down on me. Here in yr presence i am free. Pour down like rain. Come and touch me again. Lord,let yr presence fall on me. ): sweet annointing, wash me over."

I pray that God will answer my prayer. I hope He heard me. I hope that He knows that I need help. Life..

sighs.

xoxo.

Tagged. 100 Truths.

2009-06-10T13:39:00.003+08:00

Got tagged by Jo-Hanna. <3

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: ehhhh. some lime juice.
2. Last phone call: Gosh, uh. Christabel. So lama this. Last month again.
3. Last text message: Christabel. <3
4. Last song you listened to: Danny Gokey&Kris Allen duet.
5. Last time you cried: yesterday while talking to Daddyyyyyyy God.

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: never dated. So yeah.
7. Been cheated on: no I guess.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it:never kiss anyone in my life. (:
9. Lost someone special: no?
10. Been depressed: Yeap.
11. Been drunk and threw up: I never got drunk. Thank God. (:

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12.Black
13. Red
14.White

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: Yeah. LOTS.
16. Fallen out of love: Eh. Nooooooooo.
17. Laughed until you cried: of course. I love doing that. :D
18. Met someone who changed you: Of course! <3
19. Found out who your true friends were: yeahhhhhh.
20. Found out someone was talking about you: uhhhh. Don't remember.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: through smses. :D
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Eh. Don't know. all? lol.
23. How many kids do you want?: no idea.
24. Do you have any pets: tada. But used to have fighting fish lah.
25. Do you want to change your name: nah. I love my name.
26. What did you do for your last birthday: I celebrated on the 6th of Nov cause wanna celebrate before Kristal leaves KK. Well, just eat dinner at Little Italy with churchmates and after that, went warisan for starbucks. My actual birthday, nothing. Graduation night. -.-
27. What time did you wake up today: about 8-ish?
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: sleepinggggg.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: I cant wait to see the youths and the leaders!<3
30. Last time you saw your Mother: few mins ago
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: stop being easily pissed.
32. What are you listening to right now : the sound of the fan and typing sound.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: nope.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: nothing
35. Most visited webpages : facebook, twitter, my blog.
36. Whats your real name: Maxine Desiree Goh May Syn[panjangnya :p]
37. Nicknames: Max, Maxis, Kalefe, Miniskirt, Desiree, Maximitchi, Tomato head/face. etc
38. Relationship Status: single. Hallelujah!
39. Zodiac sign: .....
40. Male or female?: female
41. Primary School?: SRS Datuk Simon Fung
42. Secondary School?: S.M. Tshung Tsin Sabah [pfft]
43. High school/college?: Still young. Longgggg way to go. :p
44. Hair colour: black with tiny bit of brown. Hilang suda bah the brown. ):
45. Long or short: short
46. Height: Don't know. Surely taller than Jo and Bel. (:
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: nope.
48: What do you like about yourself?: eh. me being tall? LOL.
49. Piercings: No thanks.
50. Tattoos: Nahhhhh.
51. Righty or lefty: righty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: Nope. None. My body perfect. Thank God for that. (:
53. First piercing: none.
54. First best friend: God. (:
55. First sport you joined: Basketball. WOOOOOTS!
56. First vacation: Hah. None. :p
58. First pair of trainers: tada.

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating: nothing
60. Drinking: nothing
61. I'm about to: finish this
62. Listening to: same as the last listening to question
63. Waiting on: Saturday

YOUR FUTURE:
64. Want kids?: dont know.
65. Get Married?: God's choice.
66. Career?: dream job : eh. Don't know.

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: both
68. Hugs or kisses: kisses
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: depends
71. Romantic or spontaneous: romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: both
73. Sensitive or loud: loud
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: neither

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: NO. You nuts?
77. Drank hard liquor: too young.
78. Lost glasses/contacts: my eyes are perfect as usual. Heh heh heh. Don't be jealous. :p
79. Sex on first date: ? you sot.
80. Broken someone's heart: sighs. Of course.
82. Been arrested: nope. Me good girl.
83. Turned someone down: yeah.
84. Cried when someone died: nope.
85. Fallen for a friend?: yeah? lol.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: yeah?
87. Miracles: yes
88. Love at first sight: nope
89. Heaven: of course
90. Santa Claus: pfft.
91. Kiss on the first date: eeek. yes? no? dont know.
92. Angels: yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: nope
95. Did you sing today?: Yeah
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: hmmm. yeah? dont know
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: uhhhh. I need time to think.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: November 9th. wait. No. I don't know! Too many!
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Lol! No.
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: yeah.[number 81 is missing.]

Done!(:

I tag everyone who read this post. :p

xoxo.

My bad.

2009-06-09T19:31:00.007+08:00

Just spoke to Daddy.
Broke down till my eyes and face was REALLY red.

I was just asking God why am I an attenion seeker?
Why am I a person that gets pissed so easily?
And some more questions.

I felt that I've cause tons of headache's to the youths and leaders.
I felt that I've gave them tons of stress and MORE stress.
And damn.
I just feel so terrible when Jo told me that I get so easily pissed.
Really terrible.
I was like man..that is so true.
People are looking down at[or izit on?:/] me.
I've got to change dude/dudettes.
I need YOU to help me.
Give me some advices.

I don't want the youth and leaders pretend to love me which they don't.
I need to feel their love for me.
I don't know why!
This has been stuck in my head.
I hate this feeling seriously.
I wrote a note in FB.
I tagged Iks, Bella, Crystal, Denise and the youth leaders and Kristal in that note,
and I felt weird tagging them.
Why did I tagged them?
Maybe I need them to know what am I facing in life.

Gosh,
I seriously want to move forward.
Sick of the way that I'm living right now.

Guys,
I'm only 12.
Turning 13 this year, November.
I don't know a lot of things yet.
Whatever I did that hurt you guys or whatsoever,
I'm really sorry.
I'm not perfect.
I'm sure you know that.
I'm learning.
Slowlyyyyy learning.
I still have a LONGGGGG way to go.
You don't expect me to know everything about life.
I am who I am.
I'm easily pissed thats because I'm like that.
I know I have to change that habit.
I've annoyed you guys so much.
I'm really sorry guys!
You guys just have to face with it for now.
AND.
I'm really working on it.

Please!
Do keep me in your prayers.
I uh.
Can't do this on my own.
Hope you guys understand what am I trying to say here.
I seriously hate people telling me off things.
But, what to do?
They hate my attitude.
I have to change.

So yeah.

And you know what?
I never knew that there's a lot of people out there cares about me.
You guys are amazing.
Sharon[No, not Sharon Tang or Sharon Chia] sent me a msg in FB.
And,
man.
Thanks for sharing Sharon.
Here's what she said.
There are some parts I don't really get it.
But still reading it over and over again to understand it.
So yeah.
Baca it people.
And if you understand what she wrote,
PLEASE.
Email me, text me, call me, msn me, FB me, twitt me or whatever lah!
Haha.
Thanks.

"maxine... sometimes people pretend to be God to other people, because they themselves too have unresolvable, almost disgusting things they don't like about themselves. we who become the object of their attacks have to forgive them...you know your own weaknesses, and that's heart breaking enough already. nobody needs to feel it twice just because somebody else can't hold their tongue.the fact that God hasn't zapped anyone of us into ashes because we said fuck and got extrememely angry tells us more about God than any pastors can tell us about him.God does not live in the words people say, Maxine. God lives in your heart. if anything, he already knows.maxine, i don't want to preach to you. i hope you know that i don't hate you being a person who can get pissed easily. i don't hate the tongue that swears.. at all. But to the one who's scolding maxine from inside her head, i hope you don't hate those too.. she is just herself, and with all my heart i believe she's good."

So yeah.
Thats about it.
Thanks guys for taking your time reading this post.
Love you guys.
Take care and God bless you.

xoxo.

Yeah, I changed. So what?

2009-06-09T16:15:00.002+08:00

People,
I was just chatting with my classmate.
A girl.
Now, I want you read the convo between her and me.
This is really killing me.
There may be parts that I did wrong.
But you know what?
I said sorry.
She dosen't cares.
I'm fine with it.
I did a stupid mistake.
Why did I reply?
I know right.
Readdddd.

Sheila:
GOH MAY SYN
Maxine Desiree:
Sheila:
good.
replying fast eh
i got a haircut
Sheila just sent you a nudge.
Sheila:
oi!!!!!!!!!!
Sheila:
wth wake up you mother.....
Sheila just sent you a nudge.
Maxine Desiree:
YOU THINK I DONT KNOW
and pls.
what mother?
Sheila:
how you know??
Maxine Desiree:
who you calling mother?
duh.
yr sis told me she cut her hair
Sheila:
who say?that's her >_>
Maxine Desiree:
HELLO
TWINS
FOR GOD'S SAKE
Sheila:
wtf
Maxine Desiree:
dont wtf me.
Sheila:
-.-
Maxine Desiree:
i had enough of swearing
Sheila:
LOL
Maxine Desiree:
so pls.
Sheila:
since when you changed so much
rofl
Maxine Desiree:
dudette,this isnt funny
its ok laugh all you want
Sheila:
wth sia
Maxine Desiree:
im moving forward in my life.
Sheila:
you sendiri changed so much ffs lmao?tiba tiba
Maxine Desiree:
you moving backward
i dont care.
have a life dudette.
Sheila:
dude
Sheila:
since when did i say that i'm moving backwards?
plus
lol, rofl, lmao doesn't means that i'm laughing ok
EMO sia

since when did i say that i'm moving backwards?
*plus
*lol, rofl, lmao doesn't means that i'm laughing ok =.=
*EMO sia
Maxine Desiree says:
*wth. you wrote rofl means rolling on floor LAUGHING.
*If youre not laughing then...dudette, what did you eat?
*anyways
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*auntie.....
Maxine Desiree says:
*i had enough
*and dont auntie auntie me.
*PLEASE
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*what the hell are you
*wtf
*who the heck are you now?
*trying to become 2 person at a time?
Maxine Desiree says:
*its ok.
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*you sendiri there moving foward to your life
*stupid man you
Maxine Desiree says:
*whatever youre saying abt me
*its ok
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*last time used to be like "hahahhaha very funny" and stuff
Maxine Desiree says:
*Im happy with my life.
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*man you're weird
*like i care
*i don't even want to know about your life
Maxine Desiree says:
*i never said you care
*whatever it is.
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*in exams who ask you didn't revise?
Maxine Desiree says:
*God bless you man.
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*what the hell lah
Maxine Desiree says:
*there's a season where i can be funny
*there's a season where i can be serious.
*dudette.
*chill and relax
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*what the heck man
*you suddenly talk like that and stuff
*with idiot full stops
Maxine Desiree says:
*idk lah.
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*you sendiri emo emo there
*cut your wrists ETC
*wth...
Maxine Desiree says:
*is this what you call emo
*ok yes
*i admit that i cut my wrists
*my youth leaders knows abt it
*i ask God for forgiveness
*that is why Im giving up on swearing
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*lmao?
Maxine Desiree says:
*thats why i gave up on cutting my wrist
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*well you did it first
*not god's fault
Maxine Desiree says:
*so?
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*you did it for fun man
Maxine Desiree says:
*i never's said its God's fault
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*just because of your loved ones you go do it ffs
Maxine Desiree says:
*what loved ones
*i dont abt you.
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*KC.
*you did a heart
Maxine Desiree says:
*WTH
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*i don't even know about you more man
*you are so damn weird
Maxine Desiree says:
*i dint do because of him
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*na
Maxine Desiree says:
*hello
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*you sendiri swear now?
*see it for yourself omg
*then
Maxine Desiree says:
*wth
*is not swearing
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*why did you carved a heart on your arms?
*AH
*you said wth is not swearing
*LOL, LMAO, ROFL is not laughing too
*it can be more
Maxine Desiree says:
*i dont know lah
*its ok
*i still love you as a friend
*whatever it is
*that were fighting
*let it be
*its the past.
*im not emo
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*WTF
Maxine Desiree says:
*i just wanna live a better life
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*i didn't even say that i'm fighting
Maxine Desiree says:
*ok
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*it's just that i'm mad that you're changing
Maxine Desiree says:
*sorry my bad
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*like suddenly omfg
Maxine Desiree says:
*yeah im changing
*in a good way
*im sick of my past
*im sick of what i did wrong
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*YEAH YEAH
*you're changing
*but it doesn't mean that you have to be so "STRAIGHT- FOWARD"
*with full stops sia?
Maxine Desiree says:
*i want to be straight
*thats nothing wrong
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*yeah
Maxine Desiree says:
*izit?
*izit against the law?
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*but sometimes PEOPLE doesn't like STRAIGHT
Maxine Desiree says:
*does it hurts you?
*dudette,
*i dont read yr mind
*im not some super special person
*that can read yr mind
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*na na
*see
Maxine Desiree says:
*and knows everybody's feelings
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*STRAIGHT MAN
*then how ABOUT me?
*when you cry, feeling down and cut your wrists time
*WHO UNDERSTANDS YOU THE MOST?
*you answer it for yourself in your heart man
Maxine Desiree says:
*whatever it is that i did wrong
*im sorry
*okay?
*im sorry?
*if you dont want to forgive
*thats its ok
- (R)`__SHELLsBells;; ` ::__<3 ` x_iSellSeaSHELLStoTheSeabears&&Seahorses. (: says:
*whatever then
*suits you
*EVERYTHING suits you
*i don't care from now on

-end-
I decided to not reply. Its not that I don't know what to reply.
My mum told me to don't reply
Pissed.
I believe the things that I said in that convo are my bad.
Sorry.
I'm still learning.
God, help me.
Walk with me in this journey.
I love you Daddy.

xoxo.

Battlefield music video

2009-06-09T10:09:00.003+08:00

Dude and Dudettes!
Finally the music video for Battlefield is out!
Here's the video.
Enjoy!(:

Awesome ey?

xoxo.

I'm moving Forward.

2009-06-08T19:55:00.003+08:00

Hey people.
I just got back from my youth camp with the youths and the leaders.
WOW.
I totally enjoyed my time!
Seriously.
Felt God’s presence.
God spoke to me last night.
Whoa.
God is totally awesome.

So, right now,
I’ll just share with you about what happened during the camp.
(:

The night before camp,
I can’t sleep.
I tried but I failed.[but I did slept like few hrs ltr. :p]
I was paranoid.
Why paranoid?
Good question.
I was paranoid because I kept on thinking who are my room mates.
I don’t know why.
I had a feeling that it was Jo and Christine.
And guess what?
I was right.
:D

To be honest, I wasn’t very happy with my roomies.
Only 1 of them.
Name will be left unmentioned. (:
The reason why I wasn’t very happy is because I knew that she was annoying [To be honest, I’m annoying too. I guess].
I’ve heard a lot from the WF camp leaders about her attitude during the WF camp.
When she told me that I am her room mate, I was speechless.
I felt like shouting and screaming.
But of course, I did not.
I felt like pulling off my hair [which I did not].
But after hours spending time with her, I felt actually comfortable.
Except the 1st night. She woke me up from my half an hour sleep.
But you know what?
God taught me not to be so choosy.
I’ve learnt my lesson.
After all, it wasn’t that bad.

Session 1, Ps. Sam talked about “Does God love me?”
I’m touched by that message.
Jeremiah 1: 4-5 says :
“Then the word of the Lord came to me saying:
“Before I formed you in the
womb I knew you;
Before you were born I
Sanctified you;
I ordained you a prophet to
The nations.””
And this is our problem:
“ Not that we don’t love God, but we don’t know how much God loves us.”
To me, this is very true.
Let me state two important points.
. If you don’t live by PRIORITY you will live by PRESSURE.
. If you don’t live by God’s DESTINY, you will live by the world’s DISTRACTIONS.
And if you’re asking yourself this question,
Whether does God loves you,
HE LOVES YOU.
(:
After the message, I respond to the altar call.
Ps. John, Ps. Sam and Ps. Sam’s son prayed for me.
I was crying and crying.
God touched my heart.

You know what?
I was really shocked that Ps. Sam’s son, Jeremy, actually prayed for me.
He’s 11.
He’s like Ps. Sam.
I’m just speechless.
Very.

After session, had discussion with my cell.
Only 4 people from my cell attended the camp.
Me, Bel, Yien and Christine.
We were discussing on what is 1 area we want to move forward in our life as a Christian that will affect others.
For me,
The 1 thing that I want to give up to move forward and let go or change is I want to give up on swearing/cursing. How many words do I swear each day? I swear about 20+ words per day. What am I going to do about it? I will GIVE UP swearing. I’ve been working on this since yesterday. And in fact, I haven’t been swearing at all since yesterday. I asked God to help me on this and He actually did. (: Glory to God.

After the discussions,
Went back to my room.
Guess what?
I DID NOT SLEEP AT ALL.
Tried and tried and tried but failed.
I was watching Jo and Christine sleeping.
That was plain boring.
Of course.
I was waiting for the sun to come out.
I rest at least.
I woke Jo up.
ACCIDENTLY.
;p

Finally it was 8 something in the morning, and they finally woke up.
Thank God.
Haha.

Oh yeah.
The hotel food was okay.
I’ll give it 50 50.
Oh and btw,
I just weight myself.
And I loss 3 kg.
Wth.
I think I know why.
I didn’t eat much during camp.
That’s why.
(:
HAHA.

2nd session, Ps. Sam spoke about “He bought you….Not your sin.”
Many of us thinks that God bought our sins.
And that is wrong.
He bought us.
I’ve learnt that I’m not an accident.
Titus 2:14 says “who gave Himself for us, that He might redeem us from every self His own special people, zealous for good works.”
Also, Revalation 5:9 says “ And they sang a new song, saying “You are worthy to take the scroll,
And to open its seals,
For You were slain,
God by Your blood
Out of every tribe and tongue
And people and nation.””
And also, 2 Corinthians 5:15 says “ and He died for all, that those who live should live no longer for themselves, but for Him who died for them and rose again.”
Ps. Sam also shared with us about Revo Recess.
Ps. Sam shared with us some testimonies about Revo Recess in West Malaysia.
I was really amazed.
Ps. Sam challenged us to do Revo Recess in our schools.
I took that challenge.
Together with Jessica.
We pray that God will move Tshung Tsin. (:
Its time to lead our friends to know Him.
Its never too late.

After session,
As usual, had discussion with cell.
Only 10mins.
Then went back to room with Jo to change our clothes for games.

Man,
The games were awesome.
The 2nd game was something like Captain Ball.
BUT, We did not use a ball.
We used a CHICKEN.
Yes, a chicken.
It was fun.
And guess what?
My team won.
All glory to God.
:p

After games, went back room.
Me and Jo decided to go for a walk.
Went to the swimming pool place,
And of course,
I got pushed into the pool.
-.-
Since I was wet, I chilled in the pool with the youths.
Hah.
We pushed Jo into the pool.
Thanks to me, Kim and Adren. (:
My eyes were red after swimming.
Reallyyyyy red.
I couldn’t open my eyes at all.
Suffered that like after dinner.

Session 3, Ps. Sam preached about why the deer pants for waters.
[I guess]
He pointed out 3 points.
Sorry, I totally forgotten the 3 points.
I was sleepy.
Din't really paid attention when he pointed out the points.
I only paid REALLY attention when he shared some testimonies.
The testimonies really touched my heart.
One of it just explains the same as me.

I of course responded to the altar call.
I was really crying.
Thinking about what I did that made God disappointed.
I talked to Daddy and He spoke to me a few things.
He saved me cause He loves me.
He forgave me for doing that BIG sin.
And He also said that even people rejects me,
its ok.
God always accepts me and take me they way I am.
He'll never reject me.
Thats what I sense the Lord said to me.

After session,
my cell went to my room to discuss about it.
Bel asked me write about my breakthrough.
The questions are:
1. why did I respond to the altar call
2. how did I feel after the altar call
3. What did God said to me
4. What am I going to do about it

and before I write down the answers,
Bel also asked me to write what Ps. Sam said to me when he prayed for me.

So here it is.

Ps. Sam said that God dosen't want me to stop working on my dreams. I have to continue working on my dreams. God wants me to continue working on that BIG dream. And when Ps. Sam said that to me, I din't really understand why God said that. I was confused because what was that dream?

My breakthrough answers to that 4 questions.
"I went out and respond to that altar call is because I just want to stop committing suicide. I've started working on it since last last week. As in, stop cutting my wrist & think about dying. I felt calmed and happy because I believe that God loves me that He saved me from dying & I believe that God forgave me. And God don't never rejects me. He always accepts me the way I am. I'm going to stop thinking about dying because committing suicide dosen't come from God. And I'll continue to live a life that God wants me to live. A happy life."

So yeah.
After that, all of my cell members went back to their rooms.
And I slept.
I was sleeping peacefully [finally]but all of the sudden, I woke up.
I realised that Jo was missing.
Lol.
So got up from the bed and the door was not closed. -.-
The reason why I woke up beacasue the youths were running around the corridor.
And I WAS PISSED.
I got out from my room.
Banjo asked me what happened to me and I told him why.
I went looking for Jo and I heard people laughing so damn loud.
Guess what?
A big group of people were in a circle talking and laughing.
I was pissed.
Why?
Noisy.
I walked around and chilled.
I was freezing when I was out from my room.
My room was freezing cold.
I was like shivering.
And I sat near the staircase area.
Just to cool down and chill.
Jo saw me.
So of course she brought me back to the room.
And I terus sleep.
:p

I only slept about 4hrs.
Sien.

Session 4, Ps. Sam talked about Servanthood.
Genisis 24: 10 and Genisis 24: 22.
The message was quite short so yeah.

Ps. John asked a few of us to share about the camp.
I wanted but I was scared.

But I'll just type it here then. (:

Here it goes.

"So, I signed up for camp. I din't feel like signing up but I did. I was thinking about what if I have no one to talk to? etc. So, I attended the camp. Wow. Never expected the camp to be so awesome! God really touched my heart. He spoke to me a lot of things. I've had a breakthrough. I really felt God's presence. I really want to thank my room leader [Jo] for taking care of me through out the whole camp. Appreciate it lots. Also my cell leader and my cell. For walking together with me. I've decided to move FORWARD for God. There's a lot of reasons why.
I also want to thank Ps. Sam and his family. For blessing me a lot. (: I had a great time bonding with my friends. I just want to give all the glory to God. (: God is awesome. Oh, and also to all youth leaders, thanks for all your prayers. Thats about it. (: God bless. "

xoxo.

Camp.

2009-06-05T15:01:00.002+08:00

Okay.
Tomorrow is the camp.
Yay.
Excited?
Yeah.
Nervous?
Not anymore.
Prepared my heart?
Yeap.
Seek God yet?
About to. (:
Did shopping for camp?
YEAH.
Packed my bag?
Hah. Yeah. Did it on Wed. :p
Looking forward?
Same thing as excited bah kan. :D

Well,
its tomorrow!
Woooots!
I'm totally excited.
Prepared my heart.
What else?
Idk.
See you there to all Yo!Com and leaders.
(: (: (:
*screams*
God bless.

xoxo.

Why does love always feel like a Battlefield?

2009-06-04T15:51:00.003+08:00

Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute it's love
And suddenly it's like a battle-field
One word turns into a

Why is it the smallest things that tear us down
My world's nothing when you don't
I'm not here without a shield
Can't go back now

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it now
I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? (x2)
Why does love always feel like...

Can't swallow our pride,
Neither of us wanna raise that flag, mhmm
If we can't surrender then we both gonna lose what we had, oh no

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
I don't wanna fall for it now
I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? (x2)

I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor
I guess you better go and get your...

We could pretend that we are friends tonight (oh-oh-oh)
And in the morning we'll wake up and we'll be alright
Cause baby we don't have to fight
And I don't want this love to feel like...

A battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield,
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield

I guess you better go and get your armor...

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for (fighting, fighting for)

Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield? (x2)

I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor
I guess you better go and get your armor, (get your armor) get your armor

Why does love always feel like...
Why does love always feel like...
A battlefield, a battlefield...

I never meant
To start a war
Don't even know
What we're fighting for

I never meant
To start a war
Don't even know
What we're fighting for

-End-

The promo of the music video for "Battlefield" is out.
http://www.mtv.com/videos/misc/397960/battlefield-30-second-preview.jhtml

Why does love always feel a battlefield?

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

xoxo.

OMGGGGGG.

2009-06-03T16:10:00.003+08:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!

I FINALLY GOT JORDIN SPARKS NUMBER YA'LL!!!!! :D HAHAHA.

I KNOW RIGHT. ITS LIKE WHAT-EVER! TOTALLY. :P

I ALSO HAVE METRO STATION, WE THE KINGS AND BOYS LIKE GIRLS *DROOOOOOOOOOOOOOLS*

Btw, I'm sure most of you knows that Jordin's 2nd album will be coming out pretty soon. July 21st. DAMN. I WANT HER ALBUM. Oh, its called Battlefield. (: I love that song. *Droools* Bella, tolong aku beli leh. For my birthday. -.- so lama oh. I think sold out edi if my birthday. ):

xoxo.

Awesome pic.

2009-06-02T16:16:00.002+08:00

I loveeeee this pic to death. No idea why. :p
Eh Jo.
Remind me when you got the pics already ah. :p :p
Thanks.

xoxo.

Holidays are boring.

2009-06-02T15:43:00.004+08:00

So its a Tuesday.
Waiting patiently for Saturday.
Cause Saturday is the youth camp.

I've been reading Naruto[manga] on the net.
Why?
All because of you Jo. :p
BUT.
Whenever I read,
I have a headache.
Geeeeez.
I think God don't want me to read it.
:o
could be.
Whenever I read Mr.Midnight
or
Singapore True Ghost Stories,
I'll have a baddddddddd headache.
Now this.
Eeeessh.

Man,
Holidays so plain boring.
Tomorrow got Choral Speaking practise again!
Eeeee.
Lazy to go lah.
I want someone take me out.
But no one can.
Oh yeah Bella.
If the Sutera lunch thing is on,
let me know.
Just make sure its not on the Saturday. (:
I'm busy. Im not free.
I told you that anyways.

I watched Its a boy girl thing just now on StarMovie.
ITS AWESOME. (:
After that,I watched a malay movie on astro Ria.
I know right.
You think I won't watch malay movies?:p
I do.
Depends.
The main reason why I watch malay movies
or tv series is because I love it when they show
KL. :PPPP
Hahahaha.
No idea why.
But that malay movie I watched just now is gross.
Why?
First, a hottie turned into a tomboy
and that tomboy dated a hottie.
That tomboy's father and her were dating in that movie.
-.-
EW.
Stupidddddd.
Nothing to watch bah.

So, I'm so freaking bored now.
Reallyyyyyyyyy bored.
HELP.

Dudette,
I love your jacket. :p
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
You know who you are. :p

xoxo.

I just wanna swear now but I can't.

2009-06-01T00:14:00.003+08:00

Anti-social anti-social anti-social,
anti-social anti-social anti-social.
[and it continues all along..]

Why am I saying that?

That what?

That I'm anti-social.

D'oh.

What else?

The reason why is beacause..

A lot of people said that just now.

During Adren's party.

I was like..oh well.
Whatever lah.
And the thing that is REALLY
REALLY REALLY REALLY
so weird is..
almost all the youth is starting to call me
"Max."
And I never expected that in my whole damn life.
I mean.
I do expect my school friends to call me that but..
what?
Church friends? the youth? the leaders?
I know Ps.John calls me "Max."
Lama suda tu.
But its really weird.
Patrick and Banjo is the one.

I was totally like pissed off tadi.
Ain't gonna post up the whys.
Dude, my blog ain't private.
If I post it up,
and they read it,
its gonna be another
World War III I tell you.
So better be safe.
Peace ya'll.
Oh, and I felt like swearing right at
their face tadi.
But nah.
All the thoughts were in my head like
what if I swear to them?
Will Jo be like talking to me again?
Idk.
Don't bother.

I just wanna swear now but I can't.
Later some people go and advice me again.
Then some will say what kind of Chrisitan is this.
Or
"I thought Christians cannot swear wan?"
geez.

Things werent the same for me last night and today.
Esp *ahem*
Felt like rejected.
SORRY.
BUT ITS LIKE SO TRUE.
YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.
I guess.
But yeah, I know you read my blog often so yeah.
But seriously!
Its like "eh, is this really the youth that I know?"
or
"Is this really the leaders that I used to know?"
What happened to the "old" youth?
You'll be like "got old or new youth meh?"
Pfft.
TALK TO MY HAND.

I don't feel like going youth camp.
The reason why I signed up is because,
some humans will be like annoying me and asking me
to sign up.
So yeah.
The one thing that I fear the most is that I scared that my
roomates turns out to be bad.
AND...
NO ONE TO TALK TO.
OR HANG OUT WITH.
OR SIT WITH.
OR TO LAUGH WITH.
OR TO TALK WITH.
ETC.

THATS WHAT I FEAR THE MOST.
I WILL BE CRYING LIKE MAD IF IT HAPPENS.
SO GOD.
HELP K.

Ya, tadi I anti-social.
Tada hal kan kmu?
I anti-social tadi kerana
kmu org pun tidak ckp dgn I.
Sial. Sial. Sial. Sial.

xoxo.

I've learnt a lot.

2009-05-30T15:45:00.004+08:00

Just smsed Kristal not to long ago.
I really really really miss her lots.
D:
Jie, if you're reading this,
seriously I do miss you.
):
Thanks for the tips and advices you
gave me just now.
Love you lots!
Hugs.

Last night,
watched Terminator.
HAH.
I slept.
Was so sleepy.
I can barely open my eyes.
:p
wasted kan the money.
But I watched the last part and the begining part though.
:D
Overall,
the movie is good.
Terminator ain't my thing.
:p
so yeah.

Oh.
This week.
Like I said in my previous, previous, previous,
post that I've been adviced lots.
Not only that.
I've been guided too.
Haha.
Same thing?
Nah.
:D
But really really wanna say a BIG thank you to:
Kristal
Christabel
Jo-Hanna
for guiding me, teaching me, advicing me
this whole week.
I've learnt a lot.
I've realized a lot of things after all the teachings.
You three are awesome.
(:
I really thank God for placing you into my life.
Love you lots.
Hugs.

Today is the 30th of May.
Last last last last last Thursaday was 30th April.
Which it makes 1 month right?
(:
Well,
..."HAPPY MONTHSARY!"....
No!
Not to me.
Obviously.
To Iks and her *ahem*
I'll just not write his name.
Play safe.
:D :D

Oh yeah.
I've stop going for piano classes since Jan.
Until now oh.
I miss my teachers.
Don't know why.
And I can't believe one of them is pregnant.
Shiat.
I NEED TO GO FOR CLASS THIS COMING WEEK.
I wanna see them
Anddd..
I want them to see me.
One of my teachers said
that the teachers missed me and my piano partner too.
AW.
:P

Today is a Saturday.
WOAH.
ITS 4:00PM?!
I thought..its like 2 something.
That's super fast.
Okay.
I have to go church like in 2hrs time.
:/
but I'm happy anyways.
I can't wait to give "them" a hug.
To show them my thankfulness.
HAHA.

My cut is getting better.
Thank God.

Holidays are boring.
But its awesome.
Can wake up late.
Lol.

EH.
crap.
I forgot what I want to say d.
wth.
Oh yeah.
...

Sharon is currently helping me make my new blog skin.
I just have to get my pics from Jo.
And I think I need d youth camp pics too.
So Sharon, patient kays? :p

*scratches hand*
so itchy.
Stupid mosquitoe.
:p

GAWD.
Who don't have Twitter?
YOU SHOULD HAVE ONE.
Its freaking awesome.
Go sign up!
http://www.twitter.com/
add me if you signed up d kays?
Happy finding me.
I won't post up my username here.
Cause my blog is unprivate already.
Twitter is awesome cause...
you can follow your fav celebrities or
singers etc.
I mean,
you have to find the real one lah.
You know what is crazy to me?
I'm following Jordin Sparks, Kris Allen,
Danny Gokey, Paula Abdul, Katy Perry,
Kim Kardashian, Kloe Kardashian, Rob Kardashian,
Kourtney Kardashian, Kris Jenner, Bruce Jenner,
Kara DioGuardi, Justin Timberlake, Matt G, Denise Richards.
ETC.
:O :O
Twitter is like uh...
how to explain.
Idk.
Go view my "blogger" box lah.
You know what I mean.
(:

Thats it for now I guess.
I'm living a happier life now.
After all the teachings and advicing.
GOD.
I'm happy.
(:

Kristal: come, we go for breakfast tmr.
ha ha ha.

Maxine: Boleh bah. Go Salim lah k. Meet you there at 8 k?
XD Do you even remember where's Salim? Haha.

Kristal: of course! lintas bah. pay attention to ur movie. dun
waste money.

HAHA. I'm super suprised that Kristal still remember where's Salim.
or Lintas. :D

There comes a time in life
when you have to let go
of all the pointless drama
& the people who create it
& surround yourself with
people who make you laugh
so hard that you forget
the bad and focus solely
on the good. After all,
life is too short to be
anything but happy.

xoxo.

I miss the old Simple Plan. D:

2009-05-29T17:36:00.008+08:00

I'm sorry
I can't be perfect.

xoxo.

WHAT THE HELL.

2009-05-29T17:05:00.002+08:00

EEEEESH.

WHAT THE HELL.

IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE THESE DAYS.

OH GAWD.

GIVE ME A BREAK PLEASE.

I HATE THISSSSSSSSS.

BELLAAAAAAAAA

IKAAAAAAAAAAAA

ALEXXXXXXXXXX

CYYYYYYYYYYYY

I NEED YOUR HELP.

I WANNA GO PARTY.

I HATE IT WHEN I READ THAT TEXT.

GAHHHHHH.

I WANNA BE DRUNK.

I WANNA BE DEAD.

I BET YOU DONT WANNA SEE ME.

FINE.

ITS OK.

GODDDDDDDDDDD.

S.O.S

HELP.

YOU WHAT HELP MEANS RIGHT?

URGHHH.

SO FREAKING PISSED.

WHAT THE HECK MAN.

sorry peeps.
if you have no idea what im talking about.
MSN. (:

Its not over yet.

2009-05-29T16:41:00.006+08:00

To all Tshung Tsin-ians,
Exams are over.
For me,
Its not over yet.

Why?

Well,
I'm not gonna have the freedom.
Maybe yes.
But I don't think so.
I think I'm gonna have tution.
And my mum told me to appreciate it.
And I have to go back to school.
And my mum ask me to go study just now.
I was like wth?
Are you crazy?

I told you.

My life ain't a happy life peeps.
You seriously don't wanna have my life.
You will hate your life.
So yeah.
Welcome to my bloooooody life.

So, today's the last paper for exam. HAH.
Yeah right.
We were rejoicing when the bell rang.
I was like "hah. yay?"
Cause I know I was going to have tution etc.
And I went up to J2 Ai to like "celebrate"
with Bell and Iks.
Saw Mr.Ooi and I asked him about my results.
He answered,
"Don't worry Maxine. Go enjoy your holidays!"
Hah.
I was like :/
Teacher, I WON'T enjoy my holidays.
TOOOOO BUSYYYYY.
Geeeez.

So, this week.
I've been like stressed up.
Exams.
Advices.
Counsellings.
Stressnesssssss.
Its like wth.
I feel like dying.
Everyday is the worst day ever.

:/
oh. How's exam?
heh.
Don't ask.
I can bet that I'm gonna that freaking green letter again.
GAWD.
HATE IT.
You'll be like.
"thats why you need tutions during holidays."
or
"Who ask you don't study?"
WHATEVER.

what else?
uh.
Idk.
2 weeks hols.
Ain't good.

Eeeeeeee.

I NEED A JACKET BY TMR.
TO COVER MY CUT.
I'LL BE IN DEEP SHIT IF MY PASTOR SEES IT AGAIN.
:/

Ouch eh.

I KNOW!!!!!

I freaking hate

people not replying my text msgs.

people sending one word text msgs.

people replying my text the next day.
Except for those are busy.

BUT

ITS FRUSTRATING.

xoxo.

Learning from my mistakes.

2009-05-27T20:50:00.005+08:00

Okay. Tmr I'm having Maths and Sej.
So not awesome. D'oh. I can't wait for Friday.
Cause its the last day of exam for the WHOLE semester!
woooooooooots! :D

Today, had Chi and Comp.
Dude, J1Ren'09 have the best skills in cheating during exam. *Ahem ahem* :D
Hopefully I can pass my maths.
If I do, I will be screaming and shouting.
And crying.
And thanking Tai Ka Jie and Bdyap like crazy.
We'll see if I pass.
*crosses fingers*

Oh, I'm so gonna fail BM.
HAH.
Din't do my rumusan.
And Iks shouted at me for that.
She was like "WHAT?! WHY?!"
And I was like "chill Iks. Calm down."
:p
Oh, told you Bel.
There's no spotchecks today. :D
RUMOURS DARLING.
HAHAHAHAHA.

Can't wait for Saturday.
Youth bah.
So excited.
No idea why.
I think I'm high.
Oh well.
Being high is normal for me anyways. (:

What else?
Oh yeah.
*serious mode*
*serious face*
ahem.
I actually...
cut...
my wrist again.
Oh shiat.
Bel and Iks, you don't know right?
They will know when they read this anyways.
Ok, I did it last sun night.
The reasons are..
Well, sorry guys.
Can't tell.
I'll just keep it to myself, Tai Ka Jie and Bel[Not you Bella :p].
I got busted for doing that.
And I made her pissed.
I hated myself for doing that.
And she pointed out a good point.
I learn from my mistakes.
And I'm slowly learning.
God bless me.
And He'll keep me safe.
I'll trust in the Lord.
I've promised jie and Bel not to do it anymore.
My classmates thinks I'm crazy.
And so do I.

Ok...
back to happy mode peeps. :D

Youth camp!
Next week!
Wooooooots!
Can't wait. (:
3days 2nights.
How I wish Kristal, Crystal and Denise join us for the camp.
)':
imy guys LOTS.

Oh wells. Thats all for now. (:
I love Kris Allen. HAHAHAHAHA.
So randommmmmm. (:
Random is good for your health.
:p
I have no idea what I'm talking about.
:D

"Don't you think it's a little bit silly?
You want ppl to care but you hurt yourself
and make yourself feel pain.
That's not a way to make ppl care.
That's a way to make ppl think
you're crazy and wanna stay away from you.
Some might even think if you can hurt yourself
that you might hurt them physically also.
If you want care so much,
you start caring for them first.
That's how life works.
Ppl will care for you if you care for them.
If you don't care for them,
how you expect them to care for you?
You can't keep living on selfishness.
You'll never be satiesfied in the end.
You'll only end up hurting and not being
able to change it.
Either that or they will lie to you
and say they care when they don't
because they're scared you'll hurt yourself.
You want ppl to lie to you about this?"

You want ppl to lie to you about this?
My answer is NO.

xoxo.

Falling Slowly.

2009-05-24T16:16:00.009+08:00

Today, I yawned like a infinity times during church. I saw Joseph Bae and his fam but din't talk to him. ): haha. I got ignored lots by the youths and a leader. REALLY LOTS. I said "hi," they ignored me. I asked for a high-5, ignored pun. Etc. So awesome kan the youth in my church. *Sighs* I just feel like not going youth this Sat. But trust me, I will. I memang like that. I say I don't want to go, then I'll change my mind pula. Geez. I told the reason why to Bel. Not Jo. Sorry Jo. Its hard for me to explain it to you. Bel shared with me some stuffs. And she made my day terus. (: aw. After church, I terus emo. Why? Its a secret ya'll! :p

Yesterday, youth was ok I guess. When the leaders and the youth was having the depth class and prayer, I was alone. Walking round and round the church. Din't join them. I broke down. The reason why is beacause I felt so lost. I felt that the youth hates me. Like what Bel told me through sms just now. She also felt the same as me before. You just feel so invisible. No one cares about you. You don't feel loved. You feel so ignored/rejected. That was what I felt last night while listening to Kris Allen's "Falling Slowly" over and over again. I was asking myself,"what the hell am I doing here?I wanna go home." and tears just kept coming out. Last night, it was like a free cell thing. My cell when to Sutera's seashells place. Din't feel like joining them. Then Bel told me they're going mcd for ice-cream so I terus join them. :p I was listening to the song "Falling Slowly" since morn till night. Then "my" phone died. Aw.

Here's the lyrics from the song "Falling Slowly."

I don't know you

But I want you

All the more for that

Words fall through me

And always fool me

And I can't react

And games that never amount

To more than they're meant

Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home

We've still got time

Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice

You've made it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me

And I can't go back

Moods that take me and erase me

And I'm painted black

You have suffered enough

And warred with yourself

It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home

We've still got time

Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice

You've made it now

Take this sinking boat and point it home

We've still got time

Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice

You've made it now

Falling slowly sing your melody

I'll sing along

-End-

My plan is to forgive & forget

Forgive myself for being stupid,
&forget you ever existed.

________________________

Sometimes when I say
"Oh, I'm fine"

I want someone
to look me in the
eyes & say
"tell the truth"

xoxo.

From the bottom of my ♥

2009-05-24T02:07:00.008+08:00

Dear tai ka jie[big sis Jo],

I wanna thank you for everything from the bottom of my heart. (: there's too many things to list what I want to thank you. Thanks for all your advices, treats, helps etc. Heh heh heh. I don't know why I'm doing this in public but I just feel like doing it. Haha. A BIG thank you!! (; love you lots. Hugssss and kissesssss. ♥

♥

Maxine

[moi -.-]

P.S: Too bad there's no pic of me and you together leh. :p well Jo, I just reminded myself something. Get the pics from Eleni!!!! :p I'm waiting patiently you know? :p :p

♥You're the best thing♥
[[that is still happening to me♥]]

xoxo

No Boundaries.

2009-05-23T16:05:00.006+08:00

Kris Allen's first single, No Boundaries lyrics.

Co-written by one of the AI judges, Kara.

No Boundaries.

Seconds hours so many days

You know what you want but how long can you wait

Every moment last forever if you feel you've lost your way

What if your chances are already gone

Started believing that I could be wrong

But you give me one good reason to fight and never walk away

Coz here I am still holding on!

Every step you climb another mountain

Every breathe its harder to believe

You'll make it through the pain

Weather the hurricanes

To get to that one thing

When you think the road is going nowhere

Just when you've almost gave up on your dreams

Then take it by the hand and show you that you can

There are no boundaries

I'm faulting my landing to stand on the edge

What if today is as good as again

Don't know what the future is heading

Nothing's gonna bring me down

I've jumped every bridge and I've heard every lie

I've risked being safe but I always knew why

I always knew why

So here I am still holding on!

Every step you climb another mountain

Every breathe its harder to believe

You'll make it through the pain

Weather the hurricanes

To get to that one thing

When you think the road is going nowhere

Just when you've almost gave up on your dreams

Then take it by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher

You can go deeper

There are no boundaries

Above and beneath you

Break every rule coz there's nothing between you and your dreams

Every step you climb another mountain

Every breathe its harder to believe

Yeah

There are no boundaries

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain

Weather the hurricanes

There are no boundaries [3x]

- End-

Dude, I'm in love with Kris. As in his voice. :p I was so crazy till I have to cut out his picture from The Star newspaper just now. :p heh heh heh.

So this week...has been great? tiring? boring? stress? Idk. I think all of 'em. :/

Shiat, today I got the balls oh syg. Shit you. :p

So ltr, going church. Damn. I think I'm gonna study Chi ltr. Don't ask why. Cause I have to pass my Chi. If I fail leh, I cry. All I need to do for Chi is just ingat the strokes, what the chi characters means, ingat how to write the chinese characters and the translation. So yeah. I'll be having Chi and KHB on Mon so wish me luck peeps.

Sighs. I can't for wait the hols. But I have to go back to school during the hols. Stupid Choral speaking pracs. Ish.

Prayer requests from me:

please pray for my exams yeah? anddddddd also to study my ass off. I REALLY NEED TO PASS AT LEAST 6 SUBS. Thanks. (:

You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule coz there's nothing between you and your dreams

xoxo

Kris Kris Kris Allennnnnnnnnnn! <3

2009-05-23T12:06:00.006+08:00

Gosh. Im so in love with Kris Allen baby! (: haha. I'm so happy. And guess what? I'm following him on Twitter and that's like OMG. :p you should support him peeps. Well, he's the new American Idol! Wooooots! And I agree with Bdyap. We hope that he don't turns worldly. :/ he's a worship leader and thats like VERY SUPER awesome. Gawdddddddd. Yesterday, I kept on playing his "Falling Slowly" over 30 times! I know right! (: Hah. Adam Lambert dont deserve to be in the final 2 leh. I wanted Danny but grr Adam. :D sorry yeah to all Adam fans out there. He's just so day. Go type "Adam Lambert" in Google lah. Then you will know what I mean. :/ I feel so disgusted after looking at his gay pics. Sheesh.

OH KRIS ALLENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN.

I SUPER HEART YOU.

I HOPE YOU WILL MAKE A CHRISTIAN ALBUM!

IT WILL BE COOOL.

SERIOUSLY.

Watch this video.
Him singing "God of this city." Enjoy. (:

Kris with his wife(left) and his mum.

Kris family. (:

Dear Kris,
All the best to you.
Congrats.
Hope that you wont turn to be wordly yeah? :p
May the Lord keep you safe.
God bless you and your family.
All the best with your new album. (:
I can't wait for your new album.
Hahahaha.
God and your fans [including me] love you!(:

xoxo.

Give me a break please.

2009-05-20T16:37:00.007+08:00

Gah. Whole day been doing maths work. So tired. I srly need a break. I just forgot that tmr is American Idol finale. Hoping that there's no tution. But at the same time, I hope there is. Idk why. So don't ask. Woots. Bel had the "balls" today. Tmr my turn. :p heh heh heh. Only Iks, me and Bel understands what the heck am I talking about. (;

Im in love with algebra. But I suck in it. :/ thats weird huh. I know! (:

Exams next week. Not prepared. Too bad, the lower chi form2s and form1s dont have to go to school this sat cause we dont sit for chi hist exam. WOOTS. Ala kesian sya punya syg. ;p haha! bel bel. Im gonna miss you anyways syg. i heart you. :p

So, I can't wait for the so called "after exams hols." But no use. Im so gonna be busy anyways. Camp, practises, works etc. Gah. Life. Tsk tsk tsk. But the thing that I only wanna do during hols is to hang with Iks and Bel. (: so yeah. Praying hard ya'll. :D Oh yeah. Btw, I changed my handwriting today! Sgt kecil sudah bah. Eh, syok bah. :p hahahaha. But srly, my classmates said my "new" handwriting so cute. :p awesome eh. I KNOW! :D :D

Anyways, going back to studying. -.- sheesh. Hate this soooooooooo much ya'll. Oh and btw, pls pray for me not to swear anymore. I was in trouble so yeah. Thanks. (: haha.

JUDGE ME
&i'll prove you wrong.
TELL ME WHAT TO DO,
&i'll tell you off.
SAY I'M NOT WORTH IT,
watch where i end up.
SCREW ME OVER,
&i'll do it twice as bad.
CALL ME CRAZY,
You really have no idea!

xoxo.

Haha! (:

2009-05-20T01:16:00.002+08:00

This is so funny. Its rude but so funny. :D

You call me a b!itch. Well, A b!tch is a dog. Dogs bark, Bark is on trees, Trees are part of nature, And nature is beautiful. So yeah. THANKS FOR THE COMPLIMENT yo. (: appreciate it LOTS.

:D

Shiat, i accidently sent it to Jo. D: Crap. Gonna be in touble ya'll. Whoa. 1:24am. :/

xoxo.

Blah - Blah-ings.

2009-05-20T00:00:00.005+08:00

So its 12:01am now. Just finished tution not to long ago. SERIOUSLY. Do I sound like I'm kidding you? No right. Awesome. In a few hrs time, im gonna wake up and go to school. So shiat. Sighs. Don't ask me why I'm online now. I can't sleep. :/

So, yesterday me, Bel and Iks was totally high. REALLY high. How high is high? High. (: Went to Choral Speaking Practise. Boring. And because of the practises, I missed 2 periods of maths. Its like so wasted. REALLY! Cause my maths sucks. And exams next week. And I missed 2 periods. WASTED. Yes, my maths sucks. I suck in everything ok?! Geez. I'm just freaking pissed NOW. At what? Think hard ya'll. There's too many things to list out. From Family probs to tutions to school to class to friends to exams to studies to church etc. GAH. I'm just like so lost.

Wth is wrong with me? Well, probably not me. But the people around me. [not you ah iks and bel and alex and cy etc] people will be looking down on me. OR maybe they are right now. EVERY FREAKING PROBLEM IN MY FAMILY, I yang the one who kena blame. For pete's sake. C'mon. Give me a B-R-E-A-K ya'll! Please? I would be VERY happy if you peeps stop counselling me and so on. You know what? I seriously just have a better idea. I better don't talk to my fam anymore. Why? HAH. They will be saying that I called them stupid lah etc etc. HELLO?! *knocks head* are you there? And when they want me to talk to them. Fine! I will. But not. I will just reply them by passing them letters. Sheesh. S'lalu ckp saya yg buat lah, this lah, that lah. Like that ah. Why don't you justttttttttttttttttttttttt selllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee?

BEL.

IKS.

TOLONG AKU LEH.

SYA MAU MATI SUDA.

SYA MAU SLEEP OVER DI RUMAH KAU NI.

SYA SGT FEDUP SUDA.

NI WORSE THAN ANYTHING ELSE IN MY LIFE OH.

MACAM BULLSHIT.

BETUL.

SYG, TOLONG LAH. BOLEH :/

LORD, Have mercy on me. Please. I'm begging you on my knees. I knew that 2009 ain't a good year for me but at least help me. :/

Whoa. 12:33 suda. You know what Bel and Iks? Im gonna have tution during the 2 weeks hols. AWESOME HUH. No, ITS 100% Not awesome. I have choral speaking pracs, camp..break? DUDE, I FEEL LIKE DYING. Well, its for my own good. -.- yeah right. Eesh. Don't know lah. That means I can't even hang out with Bel and Iks? Are you kidding me? This is totally crazy. 2 WEEKS OF HOLIDAYS IS A BAD THING CAUSE ITS ONLY 2 WEEKS AND AND AND AND I CANT EVEN ENJOY MY HOLS? GAWDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD. THIS IS REALLY REALLY REALLY KILLING ME. I FREAKING HATE 2009.

-

Whoareyoutojudgeme?
IknowImnotperfectandIdontclaimtobe.
Butbeforeyoustartpointingfingers,
makesureyourownhandsareclean.

xoxo.

What an amazing family I have. NOT!

2009-05-17T08:47:00.002+08:00

Hate my family to death. Seriously. I've totally no idea why my dad wants a daughter at the first place. I seriously have no idea why in the world God created me. See my life now. With my family. Its like bullshits and craps. They love shouting at me, blaming me, etc. I feel like dying right now. What happened? LONG STORY.

Dude, why can't I have a better family? Even my non-Christian friends..their family = awesome. Lets say for example Bella's fam. Not even Christians yet so peaceful lah their fam. Grr. There's one time where they wanted to kick me out from the house. I don't mind. But the only problem is, they will be looking for me that. Or even call the balai polis. SO SHIT LAH THEM. I mean seriously. They expect me to get straight A's for my mid exam. Its like wtf? You think I'm some smart ass? If I don't get straight A's they will slap me and cane me. -.- as if they got all straight A's last time. If they do, why my dad's life is so like bad? WHY?! See, tiada ans. He said mah. He don't want to study last time. So you're passing that "habbit" to your children. D'OH. Use your brain lah c'mon. Sheesh. Life. So awesome huh. As if.

P.S: EFF YOU.

xoxo.

Happy Birthday Iks. (:

2009-05-15T21:25:00.011+08:00

Hey Iks.

"Happy Birthday Iks!"

Hope you enjoyed everything yesterday. Hah Hah. (: love you lots. Youre finally a teen. Yay. :p xoxo.

For those of you who want to know what happened yesterday, read Ika or Bella's blog. Lazy to blog about it. Their blog is private btw. :p see lah. Maybe I copy and paste what they blogged. Boleh kah Ika dan Bel? :D PLEASEEEEE.

Love you two. [shiat, alex and c not in.]

Ahem Ahem. Iks and L's punya keluarga. Not bad eh. :p[eh bel, g missing. :o]

Spot C. [Clue, its not the guy infront of me okay! (: srly]

P.S: THINKING OF YOU. Every sec, min, hour, day, month, year? :p

xoxo.

2009-05-10T21:12:00.002+08:00

Watch this vids yo. (: (:

P.S: I LOVE YOU

♥

Happy Mothers Day ya'll.

2009-05-10T19:01:00.004+08:00

Hey hey you you! Happy Mothers day! :p whoa. Today I had a blast. ;p after church went out for lunch at lintas then pergi ke Damai untuk main snooker. Manatau, Ray they all only sampai there like 3:15. So me and big sis Jo hanged out di Coffee Bean. Then I saw Max and Annabelle. So yeah. Talk talk talk with Jo then Ray and Nick joined us. We were waiting for Bernard they all to sampai. Manatau, they all started playing snooker like half an hour ago. -.- haha.

So today is Mother's day. Nothing special to me. ;p I've been wishing Happy Mothers day to the non-married ones and even mens. :p so cool. :D dude, 3 more days!! (: gah. Shiat. I have to save my money. Firstly, I have to NOT eat anything school. I NEED TO FREAKING START SAVING MY MONEY. And the weird thing in church today is almost all the aunties and uncles said I look so thin already. I was like wth? :/ well, thank yooooooou anyways oldies. ;p oh yeah, youth youth youth. Last night was awesome I guess. The young peeps [pre-teens] was making me so pissed. I have to help Bel. So yeah. Cell was normal as always. So yeah. Finally we get to eat at Damai last night for supper. :p 3 weeks mamak stall oh. Gila oh. ;p;p. Sighs. Tmr got school. Assembly. Practise. Finish School late. Maths double period. Science double period. KHB. Chinese. GAHHHHHHHHH. Hate Mondays! I can't wait for Sat. :/ dude, I have to appreciate Saturdays from now on man. ;D Annddddd Sundays. Lol. What else to say? uhhh. Oh. I WANT TO PULL MYSELF OUT FROM THE CHORAL SPEAKING GROUP!!! )": But I can't! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Regret. Oh well. Till the next post ya'll. Oh yeah, this morn. Since today is Mother's day, my church showed us this video. I find it cool though. (:

(: cool kan?[not for iks. :/] haha.

P.S: HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY YA'LL! [EVEN TO THE NON-MARRIED ONES AND TO ALL MENS. ;P muahahahahahahaha! :p :p]

♥

You left me unspoken. ♥

2009-05-08T17:42:00.005+08:00

This week has been boring. Except for today. Well not really. I only enjoyed 3rd break. Me, Bella, Ika, Alex, Jae Kuk, Kenneth, Juliana, Keasha and Nelver[he at the end then join. lol.]. Me and Juliana din't kena. [Thank God]. Ika kena 3 times and her dares are awesome. I'm not gonna tell you what we dared her later she kill me oh. (;

I din't go to Choral Speaking practise yesterday and today. Why? Lazy + having coughing. Hell yeah. And its so boring lah Choral Speaking. :p :p tomorrow no school cause its we suck day. HAHAHA. I mean, wesak day. (: but I miss Ika, Bel, Alex and Cy lots. ): school is just plain boring. Slep lots during class yesterday. I borrowed Sheila's phone to dengar music. I listened "Don't Trust Me" by 3 OH! 3 so many times even today. That song just rocks though I have no freaking idea what the songs means.

Holy eff. Finally today is Friday. Then tomorrow is Saturday. Then Sunday. Then Monday. Then Tuesday [omg, its getting closer!:p]. Then Wednesday [OMGGGG!]. Anddddd.. tada! its thursday! Wooooooots. Its Ika's birthday next Thurs. For those of you who knows miss Nurfadhlina Mohd Shafiqah Yunus aka Ika, make sure you wish her or else I'll come after you yeah? :p hahahaha. Dude, I'm bored. Bel is not online. Cy not online. Ika not online. Alex not online. where the eff are they man. :D ISH. LOUSY PEEPS OH YOU GUYS! LEAVE ME ALONE. :p nothing else to say bah. ;p

Oh yeah, tomorrow ada youth. Sighsssss. HATE SATURDAY NIGHTS TO DEATH!

P.S: You left me unspoken. You made me feel like I'm invisible. Do you love me like I do? Cause I wanna end our friendship. You left me alone the other day. Its time. Oh yes its time to end our friendship. i ♥ you.

xoxo.

Keeeeep holding on.

2009-05-04T17:14:00.001+08:00

How I wish I can see their love for me. )':

P.S: We were meant to live for so much more and we lost ourselves.

xoxo.

awwww

2009-05-03T16:19:00.001+08:00

Iks is not celebrating her birthday. ): BUT...nothing. :D nevermind. Lazy to explain and all.

P.S: IKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. (:

xoxo.

Same as always punya lah!

2009-05-03T14:12:00.003+08:00

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Sheesh. Ika not online. Bella not online. Alex not online. SO BORED. Gah, last night went for youth. And you know what is so shocking to me last night and this morning? I can't sing during praise & worship time. :/ nor lift my hands up. [Gah, for those of you who are Christians, you know what I mean]. I mean, I can sing but then its like when I want to sing. I just don't want to? I totally changed. And during worship time, I can no longer stand on my feet cause I feel so tired. :s Gawd.

Oh. I've signed up for youth camp. :/ its on the June 6-8. So, if got Choral speaking practise on that 3days, I can't make it. ): I've been asking myself whether should I go or should I not. My leaders asked me to go. So, fine. I decided to sign up. GAH. I hope it wont turn up bad man. :s

Tomorrow, got choral speaking practise. )': LIFE SO BUSY LAH THIS YEAR. Sighs. I hope my life won't be so busy for 5 years. D:

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P.S: I think I need Kristal to be in KK. Like srly. I've changed in a bad way. ):

xoxo.

Don't waste your time on me?

2009-05-02T17:59:00.003+08:00

I just love the song hatin' on the club! :p random ey? I'm random anyways so just live with it. (; gah, I tak mau pergi youth tonight lah. Still thinking. Should I go or should I not? I don't want to go cause I want to chat with Iks, KC [jks. ;p] and Bella. IF they are online lah. Plus, I don't want to go youth cause its boring to the max. Sighs. But something is like asking me to go. So annoying. Always like that punya. GAH!

Last night, turned on my webcam [msn]. Ika said I look stoned. :/ oh wells. I was reading something shocking bah. Get it? :p Oh, I just got back home from school like 2hrs ago? Got choir competition and man, my class sucks. TOTALLY. The boys sang out of tune [including me ;p]. I got flu bah budu. :D Im dead tired. VERYYYY. Oh shiat. I think i'm boy mad. :s Ika and Bella, Help here! :p:p till the next post peeps. (; oh btw. I need you guys to agree with me on this kay? Here it goes.

Ika hates me + she don't miss me. So, if I don't hang out with her anymore she will be sad [and she will be doing the fake crying face]. Whats the use of hanging out with her right? since she DON'T miss me and ai wo. :p :p see, even my friends agrees with me oh Iks. BELLA TOO! :p

Oh. And this two quotes? is for you know who you are lah k. (:

P.S: I don't give a damn.

xoxo.

Coughs

2009-05-01T19:16:00.002+08:00

Fight off your fears and tell him how you truly feel about him. Maybe someday he might feel the same as you too.

P.S: This is just random kay. (;

xoxo.

Awesome day ey?

2009-05-01T19:02:00.002+08:00

Today is awesome I guess. Been chatting A LOT with Iks. (: she's awesome way to the max. Right iks? :p hey Bella, you pun bah. (; gosh, I super love the song "hatin' on the club" by Rihanna. Its awesome yo. (: tmr, got class choir competition. I don't want to go oh. D: we suck. Lagi teruk were gonna sing a chinese song man. Grrr. I feel like going out with Bella, Ika and the others but someone underage to go out. You know who lah kan. :p plus, Bella VERY busy. Cause she's taken. :p oh, Ika's birthday is next Thurs. What to buy for her? No idea. I'm thinking as hard as I can. And I HAVE TO START SAVING MONEY. Yes. I've been at home for the whole day. I'm home alone now. Its cool. Ika just went offline. ): sighs. Oh well. :/ till the next post ya'll. Eff you Ika. ;p

This is especially for Ika, Bella, Alex. [sorry cy, you're not a "her." :p]

P.S:Wo zhen de ai ni. (: ni le? ni ai ta bu shi wo. Hen sien oh ni! :p

xoxo.

Crazy us.

2009-05-01T12:52:00.006+08:00

Aww. How I wish Bella can join us oh. ;p

Trying to improve our Chinese. (:

Im like her sifu. :s

This is awesome. (:

Ika don't love me. ): she loves L more. D':

Im pro at Chi kay. :p

[if its too small then, click the pic kay? its a crazy public holiday yo. ;p]

P.S: Fa Kin Su Pah! :p

Maxine.

So whats up?

2009-04-30T20:32:00.002+08:00

Hmmm. Ika just friend miss x. I was like, thats fast. :p oh wells. Now, im having probs with my classmates. :/ gah. Do you know how annoying it is to have problems EVERY SINGLE FREAKING WEEK?! But this problem leh, I don't peduli. Its for my own good anyways. Cause the twins in my class sucks. [ssh, Soraya shut your mouth. Don't tell them I said that k?<3]>

Damn. I miss Ika, Bella, Alex, Cy and the others man. ): geez. I hate hols and love hols. I hate hols cause I miss my besties like crazy and I love hols cause I hate school. ;p you get my point. Had Bio and Geo test. Im super gonna fail cause I simply answer BECAUSE im sick ok?! And btw, I super love my Geo teacher. Teacher Claris rocks. (: haha kan Ika and Bella? xD what else to say oh. Oh yeah, holy cow. Next week got PE test lagi oh. Like high hump, TRIPLE jump etc. All those throwing stuffs lah. Gah, SOT KAH. Why not Bball or Fball man? :p anyways, tired of blogging. You know what, I think I still like him oh iks. :p:p

P.S:I MISS YOU GUYS. <3

Maxine.

Boring tues [except break times:p]

2009-04-28T20:30:00.011+08:00

So, today is Tuesday. Gah. Hate tues cause got computer. Ish. Got Art also [BORING]. BUT, I got to took some pics in class. Muahahahaha. :p

Me[Uglyyyy];p

Fish bicuits! :p

Fishiesssssssss.

Ngo oi seik oh yi!!xD

Me writting names on the biscuits.:D

Ika, Cy, Alex and Bella <3

This time, without Cy. :p

Lol. Thats about it. Oh yeah, my previous post. I did not wrote it. Im serious. (:

haha. Tmr will be running 800m[I think]. Oh shits. I think Iks is mad at me. GAH. Idiot. Not you, me.

P.S: Why the hell always I have probs every single week? GIVE ME A BREAK!

Maxine.

STALKKKERR!

2009-04-27T21:35:00.001+08:00

yes yes, I am a stalker. I admit.

I stalk everyone.

I'm going to stalk you tonight.

MUAHAHA.

Don't wet yourself when you see me lah kays!

ngehehehehehe.

boo!

max, don't kill me! :D

bells. x.

Unusual Saturday afternoon.

2009-04-26T18:47:00.018+08:00

So yesterday, most of you know that I hanged out with Bella and Zeb yesterday afternoon [guess what? I disturbed their time "together :p]. Me and Zeb teman Bella go makan. Then we were like what to do now oh? Walked around. Nothing to do. Text Ika to make me not bored.

Sunset [the quality is bad because its phone cam]

I got bored waiting for Bella and Zeb to finish talking. :p

my H20. :p

*Coughs*

Bellaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

Bella's Shirley Temple [with NO lime. lol] psst, is that how you spell?:p

P.S: SORRY BELLA FOR DISTURBING YOUR DATE. :P Jks. Bella and Zeb are just "good" friends bah kan Bel?:p

P.P.S:Bella din't even know that I took pics of her. xD

Maxine.

Live and forget.

2009-04-26T17:33:00.002+08:00

So my relationship [in a friend way lah bodoh] with Sharon is getting better. (: happy about that. Pei Li? Mmmhm. Bu zhi tao. :s

So today, me and Christabel also getting ok already. But not Patrick. Oh wells. Shit! Tmr school. D: Hate it. 3rd Recess got Choral Speaking practise. Finish school 3:30pm. Babi betul. Hate Mondays and Wednesdays man. And, Youth Camp is coming up. June 6-8. I think I'm going. Cause got Choral Speaking practises during school holidays [crap]. See lah. What else? today, went out with Christabel, Bernard, The Marcus sibs [Except Joerel], Banjo and many more to Warisan. Eat, walk, shopped [Padini only]. :p I WANT COLLAR SHIRTSSSS! D': stripes shirts and hoodies too. :p well, thats it for today I guess. Life is still shitty. What to do?

P.S: Wth? No reply? Awesome. Not!

Maxine.

Wtf is wrong man. Sheesh.

2009-04-26T02:00:00.005+08:00

Whoa. This week has been bullshits. Why? Firstly, miss x sucks. Secondly, my WHOLE class have to write "Bahawa saya ______ berjanji akan mengubah diri saya akan menjadi lebih baik." 200x. Lastly, I'm having problems with my "churchmates" AGAIN [Well, this time..my cell leader and one of my youth leader]. Do you know how freaking stressful is this? Gah. SUPER STRESSFUL. And its tearing down my life like DUH. Its so...urgh! wtf is wrong man? I mean srly. Really..

About the miss x thing, all you need to know is..she's the most horrible person I've EVER met.

About the writting thingy, damn. My class have to rewrite that stupid sentence for 200x [sivik]. The teacher totally went "cuckoo." VERY. Hmm. Oh, mdm. Ng is an amazing teacher. She talked to me today while I was going to CCA building for chinese class and she told me that not to cut my left hand wrist because she don't want to see one of her student die? Lol. HAHA. She's awesome.

About the youth leaders thing, GOSH. THEY FUCKING RUINED MY SATURDAY NIGHT. Ok, I regretted going youth [duhhhhhh], regretted not hanging out with Bella and Zeb [another duhhhhhh], regretted not going to Sasha's party [and another duhhhhhh], regretted joining A1 cell[currently] & regretted joining youth [THATS A BIG DUHHHHHHHH]. Sighs. Miss Christabel and Mr Patrick, I'm so sorry ok? Sorry for "teasing" you guys [I din't tease pun. KOYAK!]. I srly tak mau pergi ke Skyline SIB sudah. Whatever lah. Bodohnya org ni. MEMANG PUN. There's another regrettions I wanna make about these two leaders. Christabel : Regretted hugging her [eww], regretted praying for her [sheesh], reggreted smsing her[waste my credit saja], regretted joining her cell [Jo, can join yours?], REGRETTED A LOT. Patrick [pfst, I rather look at Michael Jackson's face] : Regretted following his car [...], Reggreted talking to him [gah. Idiot], Regretted being friends with him [duh], Regretted seeing him [cheh] and etc. DUDE, I HATE PEOPLE WHO DON'T KNOW WHAT IS JOKINGGGGG? EVEN MY GREAT GREAT GRANDMOTHER UNDERSTANDS DUDE. Where the hell has your otak gone to? Outer space? NO WONDER. Tsk tsk tsk *looks down* And btw, Christabel..you asked me whether you want me to go shopping with YOU guys tmr? I rather sniff glue. And you said you kill me if I sniff glue, as if you will. So long. Goodbye. Tata. Have a great life man. . . . .NOT! (;

Hanged out with Zeb and Bella today and Sutera. So akward. Kan Bella? it was KINDA fun [if only ika was there]. Sighssssssssss. LIFE SUCKS.

P.S: OF COURSE LIFE SUCKS MAN.

Maxine.

Ouch.

2009-04-24T20:57:00.002+08:00

Hey Bella. Don't make me worry again man. (;

Oh miss x, you wanted Ika's arm to what? brake? HAH. I want you to shut your bloody mouth. YOU UNDERSTAND? If not. Go and say to yourself, "I'm NOT smarter than a 5th grader." :p cause even a 5th Grader understands me dude. SHEEEEEEEEEEESH.

P.S: Shh girl. Shut your lips! (:

Maxine.

fish you.

2009-04-23T17:48:00.002+08:00

Hey miss x,
you suck.
Do you know that?
If you want the "old" Ika,
That means you still want her to go crazy over ***** again?
Eat shit lah you.
Don't make me bomb up your house.
DON'T YOU DARE MESS UP WITH IKA.
If you do, mess up with me FIRST.
GET IT?
And besides, its not Ika's dad fault pun.
Babi.
Give her chocs to make her happy? hah.
She will be MORE happy if you just shut your bloody mouth man.
Hell yeah.
And besides...i wonder why you just don't know how to make your blog private.
And you have to ask Ika?
Gosh.
What the hell?
*pengsans*
Have a great life miss x.
You suck.
Yes, you do.
Get it?
If not..
You're the dumbest person I've EVER met.
(dumber than a dog you know. NO OFFENSE OR WHAT SO EVER!)
Have a life yo.

P.S: Miss x, go away! urgh.

Maxine.

Yeah baby.

2009-04-20T17:37:00.002+08:00

Dude, im so glad that exams are on the 20 something of May. *Phew* So Ika, go and plan NOW. :D go go go Ika!! I kill you if you don't. Grrrr. Gah, I hate it when Zane is with "them." Now you know why Ika and Bella. :s why? cause I just hate it lah. :D Nooooo..tomorrow got computer class. Shiat. Damn, how I wish one day I just can hang out with Bella, Ika, Belle, Alex and Cy. :D:D (besides school lah D'OH)

P.S: So LC oh you. Loser( not you Ika. (: )

Maxine.

Its a sadday? or shatterday?

2009-04-19T20:16:00.002+08:00

Sighs. Bel din't attend church today. Cause of her eye. ): hmmm..was suprised that Pei Li sat at the youth side. Umm..I miss bel lots. What else? Oh. My RM30 credit habis because I went to the net a lot of times (smart me). Big sis Jo looked so hawt today. :p:p no doubt Jo. :D Patrick, Bernard, Eleni, Joanna and BRENNAN went to Bongawan for youth camp promo(after church) and its like so unfair cause I wanted to join. Sheesh. Its a boring Sunday. Like always. I nearly cried when Bel told me that she's not coming to church. Gahhh.

Oh btw, TWILIGHT IS AWESOME. :p :p VERY.

HAPPY

IKA?

Lol.

Ika is a loser.

Dude, I'm just being random man. :/ weirdo.

P.S: Bella, Ika, Alex, Belle and Cy are awesome peeps yo. Muahahahaha. :p

Maxine.

Lately.

2009-04-18T12:13:00.003+08:00

So this week,has been a great week I guess (its gonna be shit tonight cause got youth. D:). Bella was absent yesterday. So quiet without her. Totally quiet. Haha. Oh fyi, I cut my hair last tues. :s nice a not.. you decide. I like it I think. :p today, Ika borrowed me her Twilight DVD. Yayy! Finally can watch Twilight. Thanks iks. Hmmm..visited SRS the day before yesterday. Nothing much. Got to see Manda when I walked over to MN. She hugged me and damn, I miss her lots (blaze too). (: hmmm, exams coming next next next next next week. So fastt. Hopefully its not the same day as Ika's birthday. Been practising the class choir for folk songs competition and I know its gonna be embarrassing. Nothing much happened actually. I hate M.M.P. she sucks and she gives me hell. Same for Liaw Wei Bor. He sucks. The whole class hates him anyways.

PE test did long jump and 200m. I got 2nd/3rd for 200m. Clap people! :p oh, wed(or was it thurs?) me, bella, ika went hyper when we were walking to canteen. Wayyyyyyyyy to hyper. Yesterday, club played games. Thats it. Suck but fun. OH! Andddddd INTER-SCHOOL COMPETION IS ON. Yeah baby. BUTTTTTTTTTTT..Wtf man. Jordan Rachael and Sashini is in. Sheesh. Im sure ika, alex and bella is upset too bha kan. Thats it. Off to watching Twilight.

P.S: I love my school friends more than I love my church friends (except you big sis Jo) (:

Maxine.

Things are ok I guess.

2009-04-12T17:25:00.002+08:00

So, yesterday was great I guess. Had fun BEFORE youth. During youth, kinda kept quiet. I cried too. It was cell. Din't really join my cell. Was at the capstone book place crying. Why? Hah. No need to know why. :p Well, before cell I wanted to go home but nah. Sighs. After Farah talked to me, then Yien..I decided to join my cell lah. And boy, my cell went hyper cause its full of kidies. WAYYYYYYYYYYY TOOOOOOOOO NOISYYYYYYYYY TOOOOOOOOO THEEEEE MAXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX!!! Kan Sharon? :p well, but they made me laugh to and cheered me up cause they were extremely lame. They made a song for Bel and Sharon. And gees, itsss stupid and funny. Haha. But kesian Bel, can't control the cell. xp after cell, saw big sis Jo. She wants me to talk to her etc. And guess what? She pinjam me her Nokia phone for now. (: yay!!! thanks sis. You're awesome! Love you! :D

Today, had Easter celebration. It was good. hmmmm.. after service, *sighs* yeah, thank you pei li and sharon for telling Ps.John bout my hand. Now, I don't know what on earth i'm gonna tell him if he talks to me next week. :p but gah, i was like so stressed out when I saw both of them talking to Ps.John. I felt like kicking Adren for no reason but yeah. What to do? Gotta face it. I hope that everything turns out fine lah and back to NORMAL. (;

P.S: Pastor JOHNNNNNNNN, Don't counsel me pls? I have enough of cousellingssss with people. :D

Maxine.

Awesome.

2009-04-09T16:49:00.003+08:00

Soooo..tomorrow's Good Friday and the best thing is..NO SCHOOL! Yesss! :p hahaha. Anyways, Monday was OK. I think I saw "her" but who cares anyways. Tuesday, boring. Wed, PE was kinda fun. Me sitting under the sun watching my classmates running for the PE test and sitting infront of Bella, Ika, Keasha, Chelsea and Julianna while doing the "meditation pose." I look so stupid and Bella, Ika was copying me but instead of doing the meditating fingers pose, they point the middle pose. -.- and I copied them too! :D HAHA. So we were pointing middle fingers to each other and it was fun. I did my PE test. Ran 100m and 400m. Well, 100m i was 2nd. 400m I gave up the second round. IT WAS FREAKING HOT OK?! Plus, im gemuk ok? :p

Sat, Im not going youth! Yay. :p:p going to Sarah's birthday party. Muahahahaha. And next Sat, Sheila and Sharon was suppose to be doing their birthday party too but then they changed it to Sun. I was of course dissapointed lah course don't want to go youth lah. I wanna see Bel. Btw, I cut my hand with a needle. Awesome? Nah. I think Ika, Bella and Keasha was upset? Nah. Don't think so. :p

So, Im having a great life without her. Thank God. Im on diet. Cause I want to slim down. :D
Plus, hopefully next Wed got no PE test cause I want to main basketball. ITS BEEN A LONG TIME I HAVENT EVEN PLAY YOU KNOW. :s and this month, planning to go visit SRS. Hmmm, oh ikaaaaaaaa, pinjam me the twilight DVD yeah? :p I want to watch it man. Belum watch it man. :s plus, now Im still reading twilight only chapter 8. -.- before sports day until now. How awesome eh. :p im not a bookworm bha. :D

OH! Im so addicted to rubick's cube man. EVERYDAY in class I'll be playing it. :D And damn, i can't concentrate during class. OH GAWD.

Maxine.

Video recap again. :D

2009-04-07T16:41:00.001+08:00

Finally found the original recap!!!! MUAHAHAHAHA. :P

P.S: You got see me in the vid kah? :D

Maxine.

Thankfulness and your blah blah-ing.

2009-04-07T15:57:00.002+08:00

What am I thankful for? Im thankful for Felicia WONG. :p she knows that I was down last week(and even like NOW) and when I saw her just now she ran to me and gave me a hardddddddd & painful hug. Awwwww.. love you Felicia! :D

So Pei Li,
Are you ready to tell me the solution? Im waiting and waiting and waiting. Oh, got a question. Are we allowed to talk face to face or what? cause Im counfused. :/ oh wells. Im waiting. Have a great life dude.

P.S.: When you pass by me, hope it gives you hell! :D

Maxine.

2009-04-06T19:21:00.001+08:00

I hope it gives you hell. Dear diary, I want to die. Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking. All these thoughts locked inside. I look at you with such disdain. When you see my face hope it gives you hell!

P.S.: I saw you just now, but I said to myself who cares? (:

Maxine.

What hurts the most.

2009-04-05T19:31:00.001+08:00

I love this song called "what hurts the most." The lyrics is so powerful to me cause it explains about my life that Im having now and everytime I listen to that song, I cry. Here are the lyrics.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
Ooohhh....

-END-

P.S.: What hurts the most..

Maxine.

Just way to bad to the max.

2009-04-05T00:42:00.002+08:00

Omggg. Youth just now= horrible EVER! When I saw Sharon and asked her about how she got my blog link..the whole problem was stucked in my head AGAIN! *Cries* and now I'm crying again and stressed out. After asking her a question and she walked away, I cried at one corner. It was time for icebreaker but din't want to join. Was crying and cryinggg. And I told myself, I'm over with it. Just stop crying and just move your ass in to the fellowship room dumbo! And I obeyed what I told myself. Din't join them for the icebreaker. Sat at the sofa looking at them playing icebreaker and I was just like emo-ing and thinking about Pei Li. I was like, God! WHEN CAN IT BE STOPPED?! Val came over to me and asked me why am I crying and asked whether I'm ok I of course said yeah. That's my fav answer to the question "are you ok?" she pulled me out from the sofa and pulled my hand and I followed her. She wanna find out why I was crying and stuff. And yeah, told her. Thank God for Val. She's awesome.

Then we both went in for praise&worship. I saw Bel(my cell leader) waiting for me at the door. So, I used to other day to escape. :p and when Val was talking to me..Chen Eng came over asking Val whether I'm ok and stuff. So, I can't worship God at ALL just now. The problem between me and Pei Li was stuck and stuck and stuck. Gosh, isn't there any equipment in my brain that can suck out the problem from my head? Its way to annoying to the max I tell you. So, during announcements time. Still thinking and thinking. Then it was sermon time. Josh preached. Mel asked us to break into our cell and I was like holy shit! Crap. Here it goes. I was trying to be far away from my cell but Bel kept on pulling me to where the cell is. -.- Then she said to me, "later I talk to you." I was like "Nooooooooooo!" etc. Can't concentrate during sermon too. Now the worst thing is Pei Li, Sharon and Adren was stucked in my head. Give me a break man! I went out of the room, went to the beach area..looked at the sky and thank God for the stars and the moon he created. I can see half of the city from the beach and dude, what a nice view. Spent about 6 mins over there? Then, decided to walked the whole of Sutera to just chill and relax. It was a good exercise though. Should do that another time again. So after all the walking felt better(..NOT!). The moment I stepped in to the fellowship room. DAMN, STUCKED AGAIN.

I went nursery room to talk to God and asked him for help. Went in went out. When Josh was preaching, he showed them a video. Almost the end of the video, I went in the room. Sat at one corner. Bel saw me, pulled me but I din't want to get up. Then Josh said that she has to say out a verse. Something like that lah! Then I teased her, "Ala!:p" I was stupid cause when she said the verse, I could have ran away rite? But nooooooo, I was still sitting there and when Bel finished, she came over to me and pulled me. -.- and I gave up, so followed her. We talked. blah blah blah. She kept pujuk-ing me to tell her whats going on with me. And Sherlene came(DANG, Wished she was talking to Bel like the whole time!) over and disturbing me and Bel. After the talked, gawsh, still stucked in my head. After youth, felt like crying again. I was sitting along staring at people talking to me and Chen Eng came and prayed for me. Felt blessed. (: then, saw Joanne crying so I joined in. :p Ps.John saw me and started talking to me. And man, that was scary. Haha. Well, I will write to him lah about what I'm facing cause I have to. And I want to. I want it to be out from my head and throw it into the bin. :p after talking, em gave me a hug..vanessa and brenda talked to me too and yeah. Kinda felt better.

So now, I'm back home. Just read Pei Li's reply and dude, it hurts more. ): LIFE SUCKS.

P.S.: GIVE ME A BREAK GOD WILL YOU? CAN YOU EVEN HEAR MY CRY?!

Maxine.

Terrible,Horrible,Vegetable week! ):

2009-04-04T13:40:00.002+08:00

Sighs. This week has been the worst week EVER. Firstly, I nearly commited suicide. Secondly, I can't concentrate in class(been thinking of my sis A LOT lately). Thirdly, me and my sis thingy. Fourthly, I felt like joining other youth/church. The fifth thing is, I din't really talk to Ika, Bella and Belle. ): sighs. Number 6, I lost my Body Glove pencil box! Grrrr. All my new shakers..school keychain..name keychain..ALL GONE! Stupid stealer. Can't you buy you're own freaking pencil box kah? Buduh. But..yesterday my mum bought me a Roxy pencil box and when I used it today in school, my classmates were like ''WHAT?! You actually use Roxy?!" haha. Number 7, a lot of scoldings from mum. Ish. So shit lah this week. No idea why.

Oh btw, I got new KHB and guide teacher. I miss my old KHB teacher man. He's a quiet guy who loves our class. :p now he resigned and Sharon's/Pei Li's/Renee's ex-classmate is teaching me or in other words..ex-asst.head prefect of ttss for last year. I hate my new KHB teacher anyways. He hates our class I guess..but our class hates him too including me and we always give him headache and thats good.:p Today, just had my first guide class with a new teacher. His name is Mr. Ken Chong. He graduated as a pshycologist. He got macbook man. So unfair! Haha. He used to work in hospital Mesra, Inanam and now his working as a counseller in ttss. Yay? uhhh, maybe. And he wants us to write him a diary every week and pass it to him. My principal wants us to write so write lorh. I got a lot a lot to write..and he will help me. Yay! (: haha. My ex-guide teacher resigned too. I guess my class gave her headache. That's why.

This week, morning study..my class has been practising singing for the folk songs competition. And it sucks. We're singing a chinese song. Damn. Oh, and lately one of my class teacher/chinese teacher aka M.M.P. (Or also known as..the teacher who always holds my hand till I feel so gatal. :p ), has been killing me and some of my classmates. Well, we were happy we made her pissed too. HAHAHAHAHAHA. And boy, when she sings..she sings like the olden days chinese singers. ;p

Anyways, thats it for today. Till the next post people. God blesssssss.

P.S.: I'm waiting for your reply sis.

Maxine.

omg, did you just...? nvm.

2009-04-03T20:02:00.004+08:00

Sighs. I reallyyyyyyyyyyy do miss my sis. Not in a miss miss way but in a miss miss way. xD lol. As in..I miss talking craps with her. I mean I still can do it but..not sure whether I'm able to do it still. ): why? gah. I was WAY to stupid. Monday, I gave her a stupid letter asking her to end our friendship. Why again too? Ask me personally lah k. Its just way to stupid. OF COURSE I regretted giving her that letter. Duh! I of course hated myself for doing that too ok. I felt so stupid. Sighs.

Today, I woke up and was so excited becauase I can't wait to see my sis. So went to school, waiting for the clock to strike 3pm. Cause I KNOW my sis finish school at that time. So from diff subjects to another, breaks to another breaks finally school finished! Then its time for club. Went to club, Max taught me, Gigi, Rach and Ken how to tie bandages etc and I kept looking at the clock. And finally it hit 2:55pm. I asked teacher whether I can go to toilet and of course, I am a good girl..she let me. :p so I ran to IS. Well, walk fast lah. Manatau, I bumped into Sharon and asked her where's my sis blah blah blah. Then I was looking for my sis all around then finally saw her after saying hi to Max sister. Haha. Saw her with Renee. I wanted to say hi to her but then..she was looking at me while talking to Renee and just walked away? And I shouted to her "wah, like that lah. Don't care about me lah. Fine lorh." She replied, "what?" and cont walking.-.- So, I just felt like stabbing myself with a knife man. I went back to my club room and passed them. And I was like..sighs, what did I do now again?

Blah blah blah..I don't know lah. I punched and pinched my hand just now to get blueblacks like mad..but don't have any blueblacks. -.- sheesh. Sis, I'm very sorry about Monday k? PLEASEEEEEEEEE forgive me. Im begging you on my knees. ): ): ):

P.S: I miss you. I love you as friend and do you know that? D:

Maxine.

Danny ALL THE WAY BABY! (:

2009-04-01T20:32:00.008+08:00

Danny will win this season of American Idol ok?! :p He's hot and his voice sgt merdu! ;p Adam Lambert sucks. He's gay and homosexual! D: seriously. Final two is Danny and Adam I guess. Gooooooooooo Dannyyyyyy! I love you. :p:p

Danny punya performance last night.

Danny's Fav quoute: "Unshakable faith is faith that has been shaken."
Danny's Fav male artist: Michael Jackson
Danny's Fav female artist: Lauryn Hill

The judges comments about his ''what hurts the most" performance.
Simon C. : "I thought it was your best performance."
Paula A. : "That was your thrive."
Randy J. : " Tonight's show starts right here."
Kara : "You moved everyone in this room emotionally."

(: muahahaha! :p

P.S: Danny WILL win this season! ;p trust me sor, Adam sucks. His voice like pondan + Adam screams in every song. My ear can burst anytime. ;)

Maxine.

Revo KK '09 recap.

2009-04-01T16:39:00.002+08:00

Finally got the video of the Revo KK'09 recap man. Haha, actually I found it in the Acts Church announcement video. So if you want to see the recap, watch 0:00 sec till 1:54 k? (: Enjoy.

P.S: Sis, Im so sorry. ):

Maxine.

How the heck?

2009-04-01T00:16:00.001+08:00

Whoa. How the heck did Sharon and Adren got my blog add. man? So creepy. In that case, I made my choice. Im making another blog which is private. I have stalkers around me. So weird lah.

P.S:Sisssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss, ans me will you?

Maxine.

ok.I get it.

2009-04-01T00:06:00.000+08:00

Dude, Im confused. Blog more this Sat.

P.S: I nearly jumped off the window just now.

Maxine.

Love is useless.

2009-03-29T19:22:00.002+08:00

Being in love with a boy/girl is stupid(if your age is 20/21 below). Its wasting your time. Though I've never dated, I know ok. I've promised myself that I won't date till I'm 21. And until now.. I still go with that rule and obey it. (: if you're 20 and below and you are dating currently, HAH! I tell you..it will affect your studies. No doubt bout that anyways. Oh wells, live your life lah k. Sighs.

P.S: I don't wanna like him either.

Originally by,
Maxine.

Updates

2009-03-26T18:08:00.002+08:00

I passed Geography and failed Sejarah!! :p hmmm. FAILED 5 SUBJECTS! Crap. That's super super bad man. Oh wells. Oh yesterday during maths lesson..we learnt Algebra. Oh shall I say Alge-BRA. :p :p haha!Its fun learning it though. Kinda..Anyways, I've been really busy this week. Projects..corrections..gah!! Can't wait for Sat! Cell week today. Yay! :p

P.S: Lifeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee is so crappy.

Origanally by,
Maxine.

Oh boyyy.

2009-03-24T15:51:00.003+08:00

Crap. Got back 5 papers yesterday +1 today. GOSH. I HATE MY LIFE IN TTSS. :s failed 4 SUBJECTS! Gosh, first timeeeeee. I know I will be failing Sej too. Geo, maybe. But I passed me Chi! Lol. Well, still disappointed and upset. 3 more exams to go. Never too late to study your ass of right? So I better start from this term onwards or else...I will be grounded and my sis will be like ending our sistership. Kan sis? :D sighssss. What to do? I still haven't tell my parents yet. :s definately I won't tell my cell leader or she will be like ''what cell member are you?'' xD so yeah. I wanna change schooooooool!! D': Gawsh, I wish I can fast foward time. I wanna work in Starbucks. :p

P.S: Life life life life..SUCKS.

Origanally by,
Maxine.

Revo KK '09 = AWESOME! (:

2009-03-22T18:11:00.002+08:00

Whoa! Revo KK '09 tour was totally awesome. Enjoyed Revo Academy 1, 2 & 3. Attended all sessions and attended the P.A.R.T.Y. too. (: beyond awesome. I can't wait for the Revo team to come back next year! ;p haha. Anyways, I was kinda upset that my cell leader DINT even attend any sessions + the P.A.R.T.Y cause she was sick. Darn it. Sighs. Even my co-cell leader. -.- only Academy 2 she attended. I was like ''wth?!'' oh wells. What to do?

Day 1.
1st session, Ps. Sam from EPCC, Penang preached and Ps. Andy Yeoh too. (: the whole Revo Academy is about Leadership btw. 2nd session, Ps. Sam and Eld.Kien Yiak. Eld. Kien Yiak always tell his ''toilet problems'' stories and it kills my laughter. :D After night session, went to Damai for supper. And of course, the EPCC team and Revo team joined us. ;) got to sit with the Revo Bassist, the Revo video girl, Jo-Rim(EPCC), one of Revo backup singer and Jason(One of Acts TV host). :) no idea why I'm telling you this anyways. It was really cool talking to them. I mean I felt like I was sitting next to a celebrity or something. HAHA! But yeah. Enjoyed that night with them. (: oh, meeting the WHOLE team = wonderful. :p

Day 2/final day.
Woke up 12pm something and I was like ''what?!'' session starts at 2pm and I have about 1hr something left! Lol. But I was punctual still. Haha. Session 3, Eld. Kien Yiak and his wife preached. Awesome preaching. ;) dang, totally enjoyed it like crazy. I don't regret going for this sessions man. BEYONDDDDDDDDD AWESOME! ;D After session, I have about 2 hrs to relax? Can't go home. Din't eat dinner. I was in church for about 1 hr something then Bernard fetched me and Eleni then went straight to C.C.C. The band was practising. Me and Steffi sang along with them(off-stage lah!).Me and Steffi was like------->'':o'' cause their voice = so freaking awesome!! REALLY! I was the usher for that night. Me and Steffi are partners so yeah. Gawsh, praise and worship time was awesome, sermon wonderful, everything is just well done. Oh, Annabelle and Christabelle came too. They brought their church members too. Really happy. HEY YOU BOTH! Did you enjoy yourself last night? :D LOL. Sermon was about fears. I learnt that..fear is a spirit. You have to overcome your fears. God din't give you fears. etc etc. I went for atar call and whoa, felt God's presence. :) I bought the Revo shirt too!!!! And I'm wearing it now! ;p too bad no Red colour anymore oh. :( oh wells, at least I got the white one though. Haha.

I really want to thank the Revo team for coming to KK to bless us. I believe that God said to me last night that it's time for the youth in KK to rise up and stand firm for God. Do not be ashamed to spread the love of Jesus with your non-Christian friends! It's also time for us to rise up in our schools. Start a CF if your school don't have one! Start a prayer group in your school if your school haven't have one! It's never too late. ;) I'm waiting for Revo tour 2010!!! WAHAHAHAHAHAH! :D thank God for all that he has done last night. Many non-believers recieved Christ last night and wow! Totally happy. TO GOD BE ALL THE GLORY!!!!

P.S: I AM THE REVOLUTION!

Origanally by,
Maxine.

Hey there.

2009-03-21T01:24:00.004+08:00

Haha, my title is just random. (: anyways, I'll blog about Revo the day after tmr. (; just too lazy to blog about it now. But just gotta say that, it was awesome meeting the team. Got to speak to some of them during supper. Whoa, beyond awesome. Enjoyed the fellowship. (: oh, Ps. Andy is backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. Woooooooot!! :p :p so, hols are gonna end really soon. ): awwwwww. Hate school to death. Ish. I'm gonna shut my ears when the teacher tells my results. I will not look at the paper too. I'll take it, shut my eyes and throw it into my desk and smile. xD dang, gonna learn more Biology, Sejarah etc etc again! DAMN. Hate it. I want to stay in pri school forever man. HAHA. Oh, got to say something publicly now.

Sighs. Since last year I've been stuck with this problem. Sighs, People have been teasing me that I like a guy in my school. JUST because his name is ''Max.'' -.- And mine is ''MAXine'' I mean..I've been totally annoyed. YES SIS, TOTALLY ANNOYED. You've got to tell Renee and Sharon about this. Just now, Adren and Sharon kept on..you know..but I just control myself not to be so angry about it. Sighs. Even my cell leader knows about it though I don't even like him cause Adren pandai go and tell her last week. And I totally got so mad. :s Outside of me, I may be smiling but inside, I'm holding my anger. Blah, go ahead and cont teasing lah k. Do whatever you guys want. Its just way to annoying. I mean if I just chat or sms with him..does that means that I like him? C'mon you've got to be kidding me! I ALWAYS go red whenever I cry, laugh, smile as big as my jaw hurts ok. And you call that blushing huh. -.- people these days are wayyyy to weird. What to do? I don't hate Max..I love him as a friend ok. Gawsh, people these days are terrible lah!

P.S: Boleh stop kah? terlalu bising lah kamu org ni.

Origanally by,
Maxine.

Sis, I still love you bha. ;)

2009-03-18T15:37:00.003+08:00

Tagged by Soraya. This is just so damn funny!

Dear Pei Li,I don't really know how to tell you this, but our romance is over.I think I realized it when your dog humped my leg at the mental hospital and you pulled the pants off of my boyfriend.I'm sure you're vexed enough to understand that your smell makes me vomit. I'm returning Your old New Kids on the Block blanket to you, but I'll keep Your glass eye as a memory. You should also know that I hate your cooking and you should stop picking your nose.Go milk a cow,Maxine.

NOW ITS YOUR TURN!!! (Don’t rush. This is hilarious btw.)

Dear (someone on your top friends),I don't really know how to tell you this, but (1). I think I realized it (2) (3) and (4) (5). I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7). I'm returning (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory. You should also know that I (10) and (11).(12), (Your name).

1) What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - I'm in love with your cat
Red - Our affair is over
White - I’m joining the Convent
Black -Our romance is over
Green- Our socks don't match
Grey - You're a leprechaun
Yellow - I'm selling myself for candy
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're mean
Other -I dislike your eyelashes

2) Which is your birth month?
January - That night you picked your nose
February -When you smacked my ass
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on peanut butter
May - When I threw up in your sock drawer
June - When you put cuffs on me
July – When I quoted Forest Gump
August - When I saw the purple monkey
September - Last year when you peed your pants
October - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
November - When your dog humped my leg
December - When u finally changed ur underwear

3) Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Lasagna- In your car
Pasta - Outside of your office
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad – As you were eating
Kraft Dinner
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Jean Chrétien
Fish - In a clown suit
Sandwiches - At the Elton John concert
Pizza - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a street light
Annat- With George Bush and Stephen Harper
asian food-in your bathtub

4) What's the color of your socks?
Yellow -you ignored
Red - you carved your initials into
Black - you hit on
Blue - you knocked out
Purple -you poured syrup on
White - you put whipped cream on
Grey - you pulled the clothes off
Brown - you bit of
Orange - you castrated
Pink - you pulled the pants off of
Barefoot - you sat on
Other - you drove over

5) What's the color of your pants?
Black - My boyfriend
White - My father
Grey – The Catholic Priest
Brown – The Montreal Canadian’s goalie
Purple - My corned beef hash
Red – My knee caps
Blue - My salt-beef bucket
Yellow - My illegitimate child in Ghana
Orange - My Blink 182 cd
Pink – Your ‘My Little Pony’ collection
None – My prized statue of Michael Jackson in the nude
Other --The elephant in the corner

6) What do you prefer to watch on TV?
One Tree Hill - Senile
Heroes- Frostbitten
Lost - High
Simpsons- Cowardly
The news - Scarred
American Idol - vexed
Family Guy - Open
Top Model - Middle-class
Other - mature

7) Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful you are
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That I get turned on only by garbage men
Angry - That your smell makes me vomit
Depressed – That we’re related
Excited - That I may pee my pants
Nervous - The middle-east is planning their revenge on you
Worried - That your Ford sucks
Apathetic - That you need a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your earlobes
Cuddly - That Santa doesn't exsist
Silly - That there is no solution to you being a dumb kid
Other - That your driving sucks

8) What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
Red - Your toe ring
Yellow - The cut toenails
White - Your starwars collection
Black - Your pet rock
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - Your car
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your nose hair clippers
Grey - Our matching snoopy underwear
Purple - Your old New Kids on the Block blanket
Pink - Your love letters to me
Other - The pictures from Vegas

9) The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your collection of butterflies
C/D - Your photo with the moustache drawn on it
E/F - Your neighbor’s dog
G/H - The oil tank from your car
I/J - Your left ear
K/L - The results of that blood-sample
M/N - Your glass eye
O/P - your virginity
Q/R - Your picture
S/T - My common sense
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X – Your sucide note
Y/Z - Your credit cards1

0) The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Haven’t showered in a month
C/D - Always will remember the pep talks
E/F - am better off without you
G/H – Hate your cooking
I/J – Mocked you behind your back constantly
K/L - Will tell the authorities that you did not steal that whale in the back yard
M/N - Told in my confession today about the moose poaching
O/P - Was interviewed about the car you stole
Q/R - never forget that night
S/T - Get sick when I think of your feet
U/V - Will try to forget that you broke my heart
W/X - Told my psychiatrist about the bruises
Y/Z – always wanted to break your legs

11) What do you prefer to drink?
Wine- Our friendship is ruined
Soft drink – I’m off to lead a new life as a lemon
Soda – I will haunt you when I’m reincarnated as an Eskimo
Milk - The apartment building is on fire
Water – You should get that embarrassing rash checked
Cider– I have a passionate interest for mice
Juice – You ruined my attempts at another world war
Mineral water – I'm scratching my butt as you read this
Hot chocolate – Your Cucumber-fetishism Is Weird
Whiskey - I love Oprah Winfrey
Beer – you should stop picking your nose
Other – Thanks for the Cocaine

12) To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Italy - Warm tingly sensations
Australia - Best of luck on the sex change
France - Love always
Spain - With tears of sadness
China – You make me sick
Germany –greetings to your frog
Japan - Go milk a cow
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Canada - Please don’t hurt me
Egypt – Kiss my butt
England - Go drown yours

P.S: I dont like beer but then I just wanna make fun. :p

Origanally by,
Maxine.
I am the REVOLUTION!

Its a wacky party! :p

2009-03-18T13:32:00.002+08:00

Whoa. Had a blast last night and afternoon. It was Grace birthday. And to me its like the best birthday party I ever went to. (; reached her house about 3pm? Albright welcomed me and he looks so chubby? haha. Adam said I look fat. -.- adam, you look so black. :p was a bit shy to see Sor, Grace and Faith but at the end felt comfortable. So we chit-chat for a lil while, drank Yoyo and played ping pong. WHOA, I tell you..hah! Sor is very pro at playing ping pong. She kept hitting the ceiling instead to me. -.- haha. Sorry sor. :p but all I know, you are gonna win this year inter-house ping pong girls singles. ;p

So, me, Sasha, Adam and Athena decided went to walk. Then me and Sash decided to leace Athena and Adam alone. And we actually did. We ran back to Grace house and Adam nearly kill me for doing that. :p and the second time, we wanted to see Gigi's house so me, Sor, Faith, Sasha, Athena and Adam walked to Gigi's house. Me and Sor decided to go back Grace house so when we walk back, Faith followed then Sasha followed. Manatau, we ''accidently'' left Athena and Adam and we ran back to Grace house and Adam wanted to kill me cause he thinks it was my idea which it wasn't. I was so happy that Amanda came but sadly, Evelyn, Gigi, Michelle and Blaze din't cause they can't and some not invited. ): but had fun with the others anyways.

After we sang happy birthday to Grace, Grace mum cut the cake and you know I love creams. ;D So, after recieving my cake..heh heh heh..*laughs hard* I put ''a lil bit'' of cream on Sor's elbow. And the whole cream fight started just because of me. ;p we nearly got busted by Grace mum though. :s haha. After cream fight I was kinda feeling bad cause the floor got a lot of creams everywhere and I decided to clean it manatau, some people joined me. :D hey, at least I clean leh. Oh, Takamichi's hair was VERY weird. I bet teacher Adeline will bust him off. :s haha. Manley's feet was injured cause..I don't know why actually. Lol. Had a lot of fun though. The food= perfect! Esp the lamb! *Drools* ;p too many to list down the fun things we did. So my question is, anyone's birthday next month? ;p

P.S: I miss youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.

Origanally by,
Maxine.
I am the REVOLUTION!

Revo '09 Promo #1

2009-03-16T12:38:00.002+08:00

P.S: YOU are the REVOLUTION!

Origanally by,
Maxine.
I am the REVOLUTION!

Revolution 09 info.

2009-03-15T18:14:00.012+08:00

Note: To all youth in KK,
REVOTOUR>>KOTA KINABALU
REVO ACADEMY
DATE-20 MARCH, FRIDAY, VENUE: KYRUGMA HOUSE.

REVO ACADEMY 1 (2.30PM-4.30PM)
REVO ACADEMY 2 (7.30PM-9.30PM)

DATE-21 MARCH, SATURDAY, VENUE: SKYLINE SIB.

REVO ACADEMY 3 & DIALOUGE WITH PARENTS( 2.00PM - 4.00PM)

REVO P.A.R.T.Y.

DATE- 21 MARCH, SATURDAY, TIME: 7.00PM - 10.00PM

VENUE: CALVARY CHARISMASTIC CHURCH.

"HEY KK!
You were born for a purpose, for 'such a time at this' and now IS the time to
stand and make your life count! This year, 2009 - REVOLUTION TOUR is coming back ready to rock your world!

Go behind-the-scenes- with REVO Academy - Truth imparted in simplicity,
coupled with real-life experiences by our inspiring,dynamic and passionate
communicators.

Get off the floor and gear up for a mind-blowing, adrenalline-pimping and
radical worship experience! Delivering real messages straight to your heart,
get reay to dig deep into The Word with our awesome, animated and
anointed speakers.

Going beyond the four walls... are you ready?
One voice. One solution. Let's revolutionize our world through God's love.

REVO ACADEMY RADICAL WORSHIP REAL MESSAGES "

For more info contact 016-8398998, 088-428824/088-429924(BOBBY)
FOR EVERYTHING ELSE, LOG ON TO WWW.URTHEREVOLUTION.COM

P.S: IT'S TIME FOR CHANGE! AND WE CAN'T JUST LEAVE IT TO THE POLITICIANS. JOIN US ON A MISSION TO REVOLUTIONIZE OUR WORLD WITH THE LOVE OF JESUS!

Origanally by,
Maxine.
I miss 2008!

Its a wacky Sat night and Sun morn+ afternoon!

2009-03-15T17:37:00.002+08:00

Whoa. Last night was awesome. Went to church about 6 something and saw Christabel. I was super shy to go and see her but at the end I did. :p finally got to see her after 1 week of missing her badly. Lol. Went for prayer meet. Its been a loooooooooooooooong time I haven't been to the youth prayer meet! :s prayer meet was awesome. Felt God's presence. (: last night was cell. 21 of us in my cell including me. So yeah. 21 of us. Discussed about last weeks youth sermon. At the end of our cell, Christabel multiplied the cell? I'm in her cell together with Sharon! Woot! Haha. The other cell Chen Eng will be leading and April 4th we will be officially multiplied. So happy! Cause my cell is SUPER HUGE Currently. And VERY VERY VERY VERY noisy. If Kristal is still leading my cell..hah! Most of them will kena marah by her edi man. So yeah. (: and of course, last night bising lah my cell. Duhhh. :)

Today, went to church. I was so cold though I was wearing a jacket. Dayem! After church chat a long time with sis(hey sis, 1st time chat with you so long after service man. :s whoa!). Then decided to go out with some of the youth to Warisan, Sushi King manatau they said it suck so went to CP and eat at Dream. Haha, believe it or not I ate the kids meal. xD it was nice though. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Then after makan, we went ground floor to tengok phones cause Christabel wanna buy a new phone so teman her go see and I'm gonna buy a new phone too cause my phone got ghost! Seriouslyyyyy. Me and Christabel decided to buy the same as Patrick so that me, her and Patrick got same phone but different colour. Lol. Not a bad idea though. Walkman phone bhaaaaa. I want Patrick's phone so badly. I'm gonna bug my dad later. :p

P.S: Cant wait to see you Sor. :p

Origanally by,
Maxine.
I Miss 2008!

Ups and downs.

2009-03-14T15:34:00.011+08:00

I just feel like crying right now. Missing my good or shall I say best friends like crazy. They complete my life. I mean, it hurts to leave you're best friends right? sighs.

P.S: I do miss you guys like crazy. Reflecting back the memories we had together just hurts me.

Origanally by,

Maxine.

I miss 2008.

Oh no.

2009-03-13T15:32:00.005+08:00

Sighs. Ok, I gotta say that I really do miss SRS and my old life. Blah, hate exams. Who dosen't? Im gonna fail 6 subjects. TRUST ME. Bio, KHB, Sej, Geo, BM & maths. It's just worst than anything. I mean..how the hell do you expect me to pass these subs if I din't ans all of the quest? Grrrr. Ok, here's a promise to me, myself and I. I'm gonna focus in class. Study my ass off till I get a headache. And sit in front during lesson time cause Jeremy is killing the hell out of me! I hate that idiot. He's such a jerk. He's worse than a monkey. Seriously. Don't you think that is annoying? He always make some kind of noise which annoys me and the whole class. And this now I nearly got into a fight with him and I wasn't scared AT ALL. I mean his big..so what? as if I'm scared of big size people. Sheesh. I'm praying/wishing that he will be expelled from ttss man. Even almost every single people in my class wished for the same as me. He's like urgh..just annoying and he thinks that he's the boss of the class. So yeah. Whatever lah. Tak mau peduli dia sudah oh. Anyways, I haven't tell you the rules of ttss exam time right?

Well, you can't bring in you're bags. No pencil box. Only pens, liquid paper, ruler, pencil and rubber is allowed on the table. No turning at the back or streching your hand. No going toilet. No talking( duh). Nothing in youre desk, not even anything. So yeah. It sucks. Sighs. I just ******* miss my old life to death lah. I mean, I do not hate my friends that I'm having in ttss right now but its just that ttss sucks. Haha. NOW, I understand what Audrey mean by ttss sucks. (; haha. Stress. Gahhhhhh. WHAT A LIFE!

P.S: Sor, Blaze, Manda, Michelle, Grace, Faith, Albright, Manley, Tan Loong, Joan, Kah Weng, Benjamin, Azmi, Dayang, Adam M., Kristal, I MISS YOU GUYS LIKE CRAZY. Miss 2008, hate 2009!

Origanally by,
Maxine.
LIFE IS A PIECE OF SHIT FOR ME.

Biology,I HATE YOU.

2009-03-10T16:05:00.002+08:00

Why?! I know I'm gonna fail my Biology. Trust me. Bha, I hate Bio to death. Hate it hate it! Hate the names of the plants..the ferns..blah blah blah! What's the largest fungi? ... I'm being such a random person. What in the world is Thallophyta?! Bryoptytha?! Pteridophyta? Spermatophyta? Gymnospermae? Angiospermae? Chlamydomonas? Volvox? etc etc etc. Dang, I don't even know how the heck you prounounce those words. Haha. I simply answer man. Sheesh. Hate Chem, Physics and Bio! Oh, and ringkasan and Khb. xD darn it, headache edi ohhh. Eng was easy? Blah. Not gonna predict that I'm gonna get A man. Nanti manatau get F oh. Lol. Prediction ain't good. (; lol.

P.S: Bio sucks! The teacher too. Mata dia pun macam _________. HAHAHAHA. Kan Ika and Bella? hehe.

Origanally by,
Maxine.
TAKE ONE STEP AT A TIME.

Taking chances.

2009-03-09T15:28:00.002+08:00

After watching Oprah's show on tv this now which her special guest was Celine dion, I fell in love with Celine's song called ''Taking Chances.'' She performed that song during the show and I din't really like Celine not until now. (; haha. Here's the lyrics.

Don't know much about your life.
Don't know much about your world, but
Don't want to be alone tonight,
On this planet they call earth.

You don't know much about my past, and
I don't have a future figured out.
And maybe this is going too fast.
And maybe it's not meant to last,

But what do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

I just want to start again,
And maybe you could show me how to try,
And maybe you could take me in,
Somewhere underneath your skin?

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

And I had my heart beating down,
But I always come back for more, yeah.
There's nothing like love to pull you up,
When you're laying down on the floor there.
So talk to me, talk to me,
Like lovers do.
Yeah walk with me, walk with me,
Like lovers do,
Like lovers do.

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

Don't know much about your life
And I don't know much about your world.

P.S: What do you say to taking chances, What do you say to jumping off the edge?

Origanally by,
Maxine.
TAKE ONE STEP AT A TIME.

Season 9,bring it on more!

2009-03-07T16:06:00.018+08:00

Know these faces? No? What?! You must have not been watching American Idol season 9 huh. :p well, if you do then you do know that these 13 people are the top13 for this season! (: Season 9..wow, it's kinda boring though. A new judge name Kara..everything's different too. So yeah. My favourites are:

-Danny

-Alexis

-Matt

-Allison

Yup.These 4 people are my top 4 so far. (: I kinda hate Anoop and Jorge. :p yeah, you know what I mean. Hehe. So,it's already top 13. Damn fast. Waiting for the top 2. (: favourite american idol so far..:

1.Jordin Sparks

2.Kelly Clarkson

3.Carrie Underwood

4.David Cook

5.Reuben(or is it Rueben?:p)

6.Season's 9 (HAHA!)

7.Fantasia

8.Taylor Hicks( Eeeee,hate him)

Yeah. The last two are not my favourites anyways. Lol. So yeahh. If you haven't watch American Idol season 9 yet..do so. (; Starworld, channel 711..Wed and Thurs, 6pm. (:

P.S: Danny,I want you to win! hahahahaha.

Origanally by,

Maxine.

TAKE ONE STEP AT A TIME.

Easy? maybe.

2009-03-07T14:15:00.003+08:00

So, today first day of mid-term examination or shall I say...first ''high school'' exam eh. :p haha. The junior 1s only have to sit for chinese and the other juniors and seniors have to sit for two exam today. Awww..poor them. xD oops, sorry mojo, barney & barbie. ;p haha. Well, chinese was ok lah. Boleh tahan bha. Have a strong feeling that I'm gonna pass though. :p:p wah wah, so ''predictive'' eh me. Oh wells. (: oh shucks, my cell leader is off to OBS edi with the other leaders and the WF. Dayem! I'm still so disappointed that I din't go man. Grrrrrr..I MISS MY FREAKING CELL LEADER! babi betul lah ni. Tomorrow, so gonna be lonely. ): missing her badly. I know it sounds wrong but hey, she's my cell leader bha. + tonight I freaking don't wanna go youth cause she's not gonna be there so yeah. Though Sharon is. :p dang dang dang, I WANT TO GO TO OBS RIGHT NOW. But I C-A-N-T! Sheesh. Life is never fair man. baboon lah this. D: dang it.

P.S:Hate exams to death. Why can life be so ''enjoyable?'' sheesh.

Origanally by,
Maxine.
TAKE ONE STEP AT A TIME.

I want an iphone!

2009-03-06T16:19:00.003+08:00

Dang,Ps.John and big sis Jo have an iphone!!After looking at it and playing with it..I WANT AN iphone!! ): its so dam cool & sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet!*drools*

P.S:Santa,please?:p

Origanally by,

Maxine.

TAKE ONE STEP AT A TIME.

WhyonearthamIstillblogging?!

2009-03-06T15:41:00.003+08:00

YES.Why on earth am I still blogging or online-ning when I'm having my first paper tomorrow? The answer is..I freaking don't know.Dayem, I miss Christabel.Not you Barbie.;p haha. Tomorrow my first paper is Chinese so yeah. :s quite nervous.

P.S:I miss Christabel. ): no one to talk to this sunday. And they're having fun at OBS without me cause I can't go!EXAM BHA. Sheesh.

Origanally By,
Maxine.
TAKE ONE STEP AT A TIME.

Exams this Sat oh.Shit.

2009-03-05T16:47:00.002+08:00

Crap man. I haven't study for exam ohhhh. So nervous. I want to study but can't focus. I can't stop listening to the radio. I'm addicted listening to it till I fall asleep. ): Everybody's studying for mid term exam and I'm not. Sighs. I don't want to fail man. So freaking nervous. :s damn damn damn.

P.S:God,help me will ya?D:

Origanally by,
Maxine.
TAKE ONE STEP AT A TIME.

Stuck in my mind.

2009-03-04T19:28:00.004+08:00

The chorus of ''Right round'' by Flo rida ft. Katy Perry is stuck in my head for days. Me and Aiman sang the chorus so many times in class this now man.And we were like dancing to the song too. (: life in J1 Ren is so crazy. (; actually, my life with the people in sttss is awesome. I just thank God for placing Mojo, Barney, Barbie, Alexandra, Audrey, Annabelle, Sofia, Lalitha, Max, Jonathan, half of the S3Ai people && many more. (:(:(:

P.S: You spin my head right round right round, When you go down when you go down down.

Originally by,
Maxine.
TAKE ONE STEP AT A TIME.

Hot hot hot hot.

2009-03-01T20:08:00.003+08:00

Gahhh,fever is killing me.Should I go to school a not man tomorrow.I scared to give the sick leave form to Ms.Mary Liau(or mrs..whatever lah!:p) or Mr.Francis(is that he's name?xD) or either Mr.Lai. :s that's why I want to go to school but Mojo told me to stay at home and rest.SHE HATES ME.:o haha,joking joking.You love me right? xD my face currently is super pink! Mid term exam this coming Saturday oh. Wth man. So damn fast!! ): oh wells, what to do. This is what you call ''life in S.M Tshung Tsin '' lah k. (: anywayssss, Im not going to see my cell leader this coming week only the following week. Awwww, going to miss her lots. Plus, my cell is on hospitality this coming Sunday and I have no time to talk to my sis. Grrrrr...so evil oh. :p hmmm, oh yeah..I read the Daily Express newspaper this morning and I read about Chris Brown and Rihanna are back together! Yeah, weird eh. Now, I don't want Jordin Sparks to date Chris Brown nanti Jordin also will get bruised up by him.xD so,Jordin be single for the moment yeah? :p:p:p oh...the REVO team are coming back to KK this month! Yayyy! Here's the video(teaser) of their 2nd stop this year(which is KK lah:p).

P.S:Kristal,are you coming back too?HAHA.

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Maxine.
TAKE ONE STEP AT A TIME.

oh-oh.:s

2009-02-28T17:38:00.002+08:00

My voice is so cacat now alreadyyyy.Damn it.Don't know what happened man.I got it since today or yesterday.Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

P.S:My voice is no longer sexy.xD

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Maxine.
TAKE ONE STEP AT A TIME.

Rihanna,are you ok?:s

2009-02-28T13:23:00.004+08:00

I just read Qi's blog and I found this picture.>.<

Oooooo..ouchhh.That person in the picture is our very own Rihanna.I'm not sure what happened still.Still confused about the Chris Brown and Rihanna case.Gawshhhh,poor Rihanna,naughty Chris?:s grrrr.

P.S:Get well soon Rihanna.(:

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Maxine.
TAKE ONE STEP AT A TIME.

Sick again?!!

2009-02-27T18:06:00.002+08:00

Gah.Im having fever and cough AGAINNNN.Why?!Psst,Mojojojojajijajojajiji..I think you passed it to me.:s haha.Joking joking.Oh wells,off to watch American Idol Season 9!Gawsh,last night performance was so boring till I gave up watching.:s I want Danny to win this season!;D

P.S:Barney,Barbie,Mojojojojajijjajoja,May and Alex are nuts forever.xD

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Maxine.
TAKE ONE STEP AT A TIME.

2009-02-26T15:40:00.002+08:00

Hey Isabella aka BELLA!Thanks for blogging about the frozen *toooot* ;D hehe. See you tomorrow!

P.S:Hey,miss aki,bella,alex &&& Belle!Lets be crazyyyyyyyyyy.:p and belle,why call me ''may?'':s

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Maxine.
TAKE ONE STEP AT A TIME.

Hot,Lmao,headache day?:s

2009-02-25T17:31:00.002+08:00

So today..been hanging out with Ika and Bella.Fyi,me and the J2 Ai class have the same P.E time so yeahhh.J2 Ai is Ika and Bella's class fyi too.Lol.-.-" anyways,almost at the end of P.E.. me, Ika and Bella talked as usual lah. But..we talked nasty stuff. Nevermind..you won't want to know. Hopefully either one of them will blog about it lah cause I'm friggin lazy to blog about iT. But we were like laughing our ass off so hard man. :p kan ika and bella? xD hmmm.. oh today is the first day of audition for choral speaking. Yeap, i'm joining. 31 people joined but only 30 people can make it so 1 of the them or maybe me have to go out and that is why we have AUDITIONS you dummy.HAHAHA. My turn for audition is tomorrow and urgh, my group is with annoying Sashini and a J3D student which I don't know who. So it's like --->:s. Bella, Ika and Alex got chosen for choral speaking and their audition is today. So lucky. Eh, Christabelle! Why din't ikut ohhhh. You don't know how to speak is a lame excuse because you speak/talk everyday. :p eh,true bha. ;) I'm nervous about the audition for tomorrow though. Jia you Maxine! LOL. Syok sendiri betul eh. After lunch break, my classroom aircorn wasn't working.-.- and it was SUPER hot. And I had a headache during KHB. -.- Sheeshhhh. So annoyingggg. Oh well.

P.S:Ika/bella blog about it!You know what I mean.;p

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Maxine.
TAKE ONE STEP AT A TIME.

Apperciate it A LOT.(",)

2009-02-24T15:55:00.002+08:00

What do I apperciate a lot?I appericiate Ika, Isabella, Christabelle, Audrey, Lalitha, Sofia, Annabelle, Max & half of the S3 Ai for being an AWESOME friend to meeeeeeee. (: love you guys to death.HAHA! But really..a BIG THANK YOU!(",) random but true bha.;p

P.S:You guys complete my life.Thanks for being an awesome friend to me.(;

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Maxine.

Hey,I din't notice that!

2009-02-22T15:30:00.006+08:00

Whoa sis.You've got to be like joking me.Wanna know why?Hold on.(: k,I was deleting some of my emails and I decided to read one of my sis email's.So,I click and I found out that I sent her an email about friendship and just wanna let her know that I really thank her for being my friend and she replied lah.So I read the reply.And one of the sentence in her reply that shocked me this now was ''thank you my lil sis...'' and I was like huh?How long ago was this?I scrolled up and it was 18 JULY 2008!And I thought we agreed being ''sisters''like end of December last year man.I was shocked she called me ''lil sis'' at that time.:s ahahahaha.Wanna read the email I sent to her and the reply she sent to me?Here it is then.(:

"Hey,just dropping by to say a few things...

A loyal friend laughs at your jokes when they're not so good, and sympathizes with your problems when they're not so bad.
Yesterday brought the beginning, tomorrow brings the end, and somewhere in the middle we became the best of friends.
Friendship isn't a big thing - it's a million little things.
Soul-mates are people who bring out the best in you.
They are not perfect but are always perfect for you.
The best kind of friend is the one you could sit on a porch with, never saying a word, and walk away feeling like that was the best conversation you've had.
A true friend is one who thinks you are a good egg even if you are half-cracked. It is the friends you can call up at 4 a.m. that matter.
A true friend reaches for your hand and touches your heart.
Remember, we all stumble, every one of us.
That's why it's a comfort to go hand in hand.
Hold a true friend with both your hands.
Are we not like two volumes of one book?
A good friend is a connection to life - a tie to the past, a road to the future, the key to sanity in a totally insane world. A friend can tell you things you don't want to tell yourself.
A friend is one of the nicest things you can have, and one of the best things you can be.
Only your real friends will tell you when your face is dirty.
The most beautiful discovery true friends make is that they can grow separately without growing apart.
The language of friendship is not words but meanings.

So,i just wanna let u know that u've been really a good friend to me and others...=)..haha..keep it on..
-MaxiNe-

Hahahaha...thank you my lil sis...hahaha..."A friend can tell you things you don't want to tell yourself.'' that is why u keep calling me po po?!!hahaha...lol...''(this is my sis reply).

Gawsh,still shocked.:s oh, I used to call her popo btw. Way before we became sisters.;)

P.S:Sis,let's keep the ''sistership'' forever shall we?xD

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Maxine.

Welcome to my life.

2009-02-20T18:07:00.006+08:00

Well,this week had been an awesome week for me.Though the week haven't completed yet. Gah, you know what I mean right? If you don't then..please do consider youreself stupid will ya? :p haha. Anyways,I've been like hanging out with Ika, Keasha, Audrey, Sophia and Lalitha?Lol.Random..yeah,I know. Hehe. It's awesome being random anyways. Don't you think so? :o

So uhhh,KHB is killing me.Hate the teacher. He speaks so soft, he don't explain the things he wanna explain properly etc etc etc. And I got punished for KHB on Wed. BAH. Shocked? Nahh..don't be.;) All i got to do is just stand outside the class for 2 periods. And..fyi,each period is 40 mins. So,40mins+40mins=1 hour and 20 mins right? lol. It was fun.Talked to Sheila,Correnne,Jacqueline and Aiman cause they were punished too.:D we talked about life in TTSS..the teachers..friends..Hitz.Fm..Chris Brown and Rihanna(We were confused about the case bahh)..etc etc.It was fun standing out. And our principal pass by us twice and I said to him ''siao jang,zhau an.'' Don't know how to spell the han yi ping yin anyways..lol. Anyways, it was afternoon and I said that to him. My friend was like..''wei,it's afternoon lah buduh.''I was like lmao. Then,the second time he passed by, I said ''siao jang,ni hao.'' Then he replied ''hao.*smiles*" Maxine: *heart melts* HAHAHAHAHAHA!Joking joking.

Anyways, this week..I had been weird lah. Whenever each teacher I pass by, I will say,''lao se,ni hao.*bow a lil bit*'' Seriously..but,this is what you call manners lah.:) hmmm..I'm trying to slim down now btw. I think I gain 1kg.:s LOL.

OMG. Tomorrow is going be an awesome day!!! First, school finishes at 10:50. As usual lah..and Sat subjects ain't that important. Oh shucks, tomorrow I'm having Biology test. Damn it. Hate bio. Grrrr..the teacher too. ;p anyways, after school..balik rumah,mandi etc then..go to Upperstar,Damai for Jaq's birthday party. YES,She booked the whole upstairs of Upperstar! yeah baby,I can use to com. Muahahahaha!! Then me and her and some other people will be walking to Yoyo to buy drinks..obv. Then,I'm going to Glory Christian Centre(GCC) for youth. YESS!Finally I can go and visit. Annabelle and Christabelle will be there cause they're one of the youth. Like duhhh..and after youth I will be following their car to school for house party!!!YEAH BABY.7-9PM. No ignite for me tomorrow night. ;D then MAYBE after house party, my brother is going to pick me up from school to join my own youth for supper. MUAHAHAHAH. Good plans good plans. ;p

And,today is the first TTSS Red Crescent club meeting FOR the year 2009. :) we had a welcome party for the newbies who just joined the club this year obviously..and btw,including me yeah.;) had a lot of fun during the party. And Max was killing my laughters like crazy.;)

Oh yeah,I kept dreaming that ''she's'' back in KK man.Gawd, how I wish!! Grrrr..when?when? WHEN?!!! Miss her like crazy.

P.S:I miss you more than words can say.D':

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Maxine.

STOP IT FOR MY SAKE YOU IDIOT.

2009-02-18T20:24:00.002+08:00

Urgh.I hate people who copies me!YES SHEILA,I AGREE WITH YOU EVERYTHING WE SAID THIS NOW WHEN WE WERE PUNHISED OUTSIDE.:D yeah,I got punished.;p Maxine ain't a good girl fyi.

P.S:I hate you.

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Maxine.

J1 Ren,filled with 2 weirdos.:/ ouch.

2009-02-16T17:11:00.006+08:00

Hahahahaha.I'm being so mean man..but I just thank God that I'm not like those two girls in my class man.Probably you guys are blur right?Well,just want to let you know that my class has two weird girls.When I mean weird...I mean VERY weird.:s not gonna tell you their names cause I takut some humans will tell my teachers.So yeah.I've been really annoyed by one of them this now.With her annoying voice..annoying laughing..Grrrr..just wanna make me die.During orientation also she annoyed me like hell.Keep asking me stupid questions.-.- sheesh.At least she's better than the other girl that I want to talk about.Well,this other girl..she is REALLY disgusting!And because of that..I almost die of laughters everyday with Sharon and Sheila.Ok wanna know what's the disgusting stuff she did in class?Ok,i'll list it now.So open your eyes big and vomit if you want to.;)

-She blowed her nose with 10 tissues and put it in her desk and she will roll up each tissues into a size of a stick?and stuck it up into her nose and after that she put the tissue in her mouth.EWWWW.

-She will bite out all the dirt from her fingernails and spit the dirts out to sharon(they both sit next to each other).WHOA,thank God I din't sit next to her man.:s hahaha.

-She dig her ears/nose.

-She talks and laugh at herself(ok,this is not disgusting lah..but it's just weird).

And a lot of other disgusting stuff lah she'll do the next time.Hopefully tomorrow I got more things to laugh at her.:p hahaha.

P.S:Sis,don't be mad at me for saying this kind of stuff but it's just funny bahhhh.;p

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Maxine.
Take one step at a time.

Oh,so sick.

2009-02-15T15:50:00.004+08:00

Gah.I'm having fever now.Everyday I have different sickness man.So damn annoying.Mon-fri, sneezing,cough,flu and a lil bit of fever.Then getting better edi.Manatau,last night after eating many fried ''wan tans'' and a small chocolate bars that May and Yien gave to me for valentines day,my stomach was killing me.-.- until this morning and noon time still got that freaking stomach pain.Sheesh.I nearly fell asleep during sermon.I was just resting..then went to the fellowship room to like rest again then decided to drink a cup of hot Milo and man,i felt a lil bit better after drinking.But,when I'm not drinking anything,the pain will come back again.Grrrrrr..mau pengsan sudah.So,went to hilltop for lunch and I slept in a coffee shop.Din't wanna eat..cause I can't even finish eating my roti telur this morning.So,being smart and saving money..don't eat lorh.;p drank 100plus and slept back.Had lunch with all the oldies bah so..they talk talk talk until 2 something mah..so sleep for a lil while lorh.My body temperature is so hot..so obviously,I'm having high fever.And sis told me at church this now that I'm having fever cause she touched my head.After waking up from my sleep,the stomach pain is gone.Yess!But,still having fever.Dayem!I hope that I can go to school tomorrow lah cause I wanna pass up the choral speaking form to my class teacher before the date line anddddddd..I lazy want to fill in the sick leave form.So complicated man.:p oh well,just pray for me.Your prayers are very much appericiated.:D

P.S:So happy to see you today.;) I guess you know who I'm talking about.Lol.

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Maxine.

More.

2009-02-14T19:28:00.005+08:00

Just got this pictures of sports day.From annabelle.I just wanna upload 3 cause the other two..I LOOK HORRIBLE man.Super horrible.So yeah.HAHAHAHAHA.

Hahaha.That's it.

Oh yeah,I wanna make a shoutout to :

-sis

-Ika

-Bella

-Christabelle

-Soraya

-Audrey

-Max

-Annabelle

-Kristal

-Felicia W.

-Joanne Ng

-Shereen

-Kim Nyuk

-Kee

A very happy Valentines day!:) have an awesome one.Especially Bella,Ika?and Kee.:D

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Maxine.

I don't need you anyways.

2009-02-14T13:13:00.007+08:00

Whoa.This week has been a quiet week for me.I've been shutting up in class.Not really talkative.Focusing on God and so on.I read Psalm chapter 1 to 8 in class yesterday.Yeap,I brought my bible to school.It's awesome bah bringing the word of God to school. I was reading the bible cause umm..something just happened about 2 or 3 days ago.Me and the S3 Ai people.Not gonna talk about it cause it's so annoying and I freaking wanna forget about it.Well,the problem that I'm facing with them was stucked in my head for the whole day.So,after reading a few chapter of Psalm,I felt more better and happier I guess.Haha.But seriously,reading the word of God is just so awesome.;) I shared with my sis about the problem that I'm facing with ''them'' and listening to her advice and taking her advice,I felt much much more better.If they don't wanna forgive then,it's ok.I don't need them in my life.All I need is God.But God wants us to forgive even though they hurt your feelings badly cause Jesus was nailed on the cross just because of our wrong doings and yet,God forgave us and he will ALWAYS forgive us.The S3 Ai people don't give me any brighter future but God does.God is everything to me.Though I can't see him right now,it's ok cause I know God is just right next to me,protecting me from my enemies.The Lord is with me..whom shall I fear?It dosen't matter whether I have NO friends at all cause God is my bestest friend. :)

''I don't care what they say/think about me.It's alright,it's alright.They'll get it one day.'';)

Like what Annabelle said..''Have a great life.''Belle,I love you're freaking phrase!:p

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Maxine.

Videosssss.

2009-02-08T16:42:00.003+08:00

Here are the videos of TTSS Sports Day '09 cheerleading dances.All the five houses.;) Enjoy. I LOVE ORANGE HOUSE WAN MAN.Dayem! Regret regret.

Green House.

Blue House.

Orange House.

Red House.

Purple House.

SEE!Orange house punya syok kan.;)

Maxine.

Sports Day.

2009-02-08T16:25:00.006+08:00

Phew.Just finished sports day yesterday.This week had been one heck of a week.VERY tiring.During the night practise I yawned like 99.9 times.SERIOUSLY.:s well,Green House lost. Awwww..so sad huh.Orange house got first it's like so not fair cause they got Jonathan,Abigail etc etc etc. But no matter what,Green House is always the first lah kan Qi.xD din't wanna join them at the field yesterday cause it's very a waste of a time.Seriously..and it was SUPER DUPER muddy like crap.The mud reaches like 10cm above you're ankle man.Gawsh,that sucks. I'm very upset that sports day is over cause no more practises.Ahhhhh..so not fair. Hahahaha.

During the running events,I'd been cheering for my friends NOT for my own house.Seriously..no jokes. I mean,I have to cheer for my friends bahh..if not they think you don't support them mah.Hehe.Had a great time talking to Christabelle, Felicia, Cheryl, Joanne, Annabelle, Sis etc etc. Oh, by the way I visited SRS and MN on Friday with Ika, Alex, Tasha, Davina, Petra and Isabella. Love it. Wanna suprised Soraya and Grace but they din't even looked suprised.-.- oh well. HAHAHAHA.I hate the cheerleading outfit. Whenever I see my friends they will be like ''omg Maxine!First time seeing you wear skirt oh.'' blah blah blah as if ttss girl's school uniform not baju and skirt mah dumbo.Ish.;p lazy wanna blog lah.I'll just let you see the pics lah k.More pics to be uploaded when Annabelle upload it in FB.;)

Take care and God Bless.

Maxine.

Jia you.

2009-02-04T23:38:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow,I will be having my first TTSS sports day till this Sat.Tomorrow is bazaar but still have to dance man.Shitty.Hahaha.Will blog more about this week this Sat.Green House,Jia You!!!!!!!!We can do it de.Have faith,be stong.HAHAHAHA.

Ba shi qing jun,shil li nan dang,
chong po yu zhou,yong duo jia gaun,
Buzz** Buzz**
GREEN HOUSE!!!

whoooooop.Hahaha.Will be seeing Joanne tomorrow.Yayyyy!xD

Maxine.